Study Bug Nerves …

studyadamlevineThroughout the past several years I have undertaken distance education through various universities. My end goal is to become a Primary school teacher. The irony of this is not lost on me, considering my three children CONSTANTLY keep me on my toes and drive me mad (in great ways, of course!)

I recently received some results that were a pleasurable surprise! I didn’t think I ‘understood’ the assignment at all, yet I trucked on, and  You Should Be Studying gained assistance from emailing the tutor (HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS AVENUE, it’s what they’re there for – I now realise this only having just sucked it up and given in to asking for assistance/clarification!) and especially gaining help from online supportive friends. In the end, I gained a High Distinction, and a Distinction overall,  and by gosh, I am very proud of it. Whenever I am doing assignments, that little self doubt voice rears it’s ugly head and tells me I’m not good enough, I’ll never make it, and to just give up. I guess because in the past I haven’t committed, and as a result, failed some subjects.

The other week, I went to a seminar session with Emazon. I’ve seen her before, and little moments of that session have always resonated with me (although putting into practice is a constant challenge!). She went into some details over no such thing as re-programming the mind> It’s all about new programming. I think that when it comes to my university studies, this is the one thing I need to remember. Forget about the past, it’s happened. Some things might stay in the brain that can come in handy, when it comes to assignments, but all those fails, I can now rise and program myself to succeed. From all my worrying about failing, and having to re-do subjects because I didn’t receive cross-credit, I didn’t even realise that I have completed my first year of university!!! (All except 10 days of practicum placement, which can be done when I am able to get into primary schools!) Hooray! I NEVER thought I’d be able to say that, it feels like I have been doing this for years (which I have!!!)

Sooo, next week the university trimester is back. I am starting to panic a little, and the nerves are making me second guess myself. I feel overwhelmed with having to run a house, round up and raise three children, help out with school community projects, run a successful direct sales business, AND complete university. BUT.. I’m new programming, and thinking positive. If it’s really what I want, I know I will succeed. I know that over the weekend, I need to plan, plan, plan. Learning to use my time wisely is an ongoing lesson, and I look forward to succeeding in all areas.

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What are your top study tips?! What keeps you concentrating, and/or motivated?!

Wish me luck, as I throw our life into chaos for another semester of bettering myself and attaining a dream!

Emazoning it…. Learning to walk before I run

This week has been a topsy-turvy week in the SydneyGen world of things-that-happen…..

Our youngest has been hit with a horrible sickness, and her usual vibrant self is nowhere to be seen. It’s taken 2 doctors visits to finally diagnose tonsillitis, so with the proper medication, I’m hoping we all get some sleep relief soon! Speaking of sleep…. an interesting thing happened to me last night.

I attended a free (absolute BARGAIN) one and a half hour session with Emazon (Stand Your Ground) thanks to the wonderful girls at Designed 2 Fit gym.  If you haven’t heard of Emazon before, she’s been on The Biggest Loser, and Australia’s Next Top Model. From her website: Emazon travels the country as a keynote speaker, presenter and coach. STAND YOUR GROUND is the renowned mind body workshop that has toured the country for over 5 years. A provocative and unconventional insight into our health, weightloss, self image, personal authority and self destructive behaviours.

Anywho… for an hour I got to put on some very cool red wrist wraps, that immediately got me into the ‘zone’ and belt out some boxing and get my mind into some focus points.. basically, I got to forget about the world and my life for an hour and a half. Whilst I really enjoyed the boxing aspect of it, and the way that Emazon made you micro focus, I got the most of the session at the end. She ran us through a breathing technique and relaxation, which of course I loved, as it w photo IMG_5234_zpsb9ac3a6a.jpgas very yoga-esque. Then, she spoke to us about some ‘techy stuff’ to do with our bodies, brains and functioning. As she was speaking I was listening and nodding along. Everything she was saying I was thinking, “yes, yes, yes that’s me, yes” … I don’t get enough sleep. I don’t sleep at the optimum times, I don’t handle my body correctly, and I’ve definitely done too much too fast in everything, to be able to maintain a proper, consistent form of living and weight loss.  I asked a question about how “us mothers with young ones” are supposed to get the “eight hours” sleep, when it’s a fantasy. The answer wasn’t as complicated as I thought. If I can’t get the eight hours, then it’s more beneficial for me to be asleep between 10pm-1am in the ‘deepest’ part of sleep. That means I start a going-to-bed ritual a lot earlier than I usually do. I turn off technology, I calm my brain down, and make it a habit to sleep sooner, rather than later. Surely that can’t be too hard!!

At the moment, I’m really unhappy with how I feel I’ve let myself go. In the last year I’ve gained 10kgs and I can feel every little bit of it. Interestingly though, instead of thinking I have to go hell-for-leather and start immediately.. it was pointed out, that in order for our bodies to not rebel on us, or go into shock, we have to ease into things. So, with that in mind, I am not jumping straight onto the 1200 calorie eating plan again, I am not going to attempt to run 8kms again, instead… I’m going to slowly ease my calories down to 1200 over the next two weeks, and I’m going to start walking as much as I can. This is my ‘say it out loud’ and I’m hoping you’ll hold me accountable!

I was very lucky to have a wonderful stranger gift me a ‘group session’ that she had won in the lucky door prize. I thought I was going to cry!! It’s those small things that need to push me. Last night I saw some people I hadn’t seen in a very long time, it was like a mini 12wbt reunion. I was so happy seeing them, and realised that by isolating myself, and not seeing them I have not been ‘surrounding myself with things that help’ … These were girls I climbed the highest mountain with (literally) and they’re the type of people who will gently push and encourage and you listen, because they’re going through exactly the same thing you are! So in saying that. I am also going to work out how I can afford regular gym sessions, one-on-ones and group training.  I’d love to go to the Emazon convention in October, but some things are beyond reach… for now.

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Middle and Center for the Team Photo!!

Err so what was this post all about then? Ummm.. it was just me wanting to express that A: I don’t like the way I am right now. B: I know I can change this. C: I will change myself slowly and surely. D: I recommend you look up Emazon and check her out. E: The girls at Designed 2 Fit are awesome. F: I will surround myself with people that help me be the best version I can be. G: Tonsillitis in littlies sucks H: I don’t need to get through the whole alphabet because this post is long enough.

Until next time….  Stand Proud and JUST Be the Best You Can Be!