Weighing in and running for it

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Things are going well in discovery land, every day is a new day and I need to keep pushing through temptations and trying to make the right choices.

No, I don’t need that cookie at Mrs Fields’, even if it’s called a “nibbler”, how harmful could it be?? I didn’t choose to find out! I was standing longingly at the counter having an internal debate about it being ‘okay’ if I just got one with a coffee. Lucky for me, I’d just been in a few stores and tried on some clothes, fitting into mediums and size 12 dresses!!!! This gave me enough confirmation to walk away, so I did. My hips thank me for it, but even better, the scales today reflected the decision.

Today I jumped on the scales and it’s official! 71.0kgs! (156.2lbs) which makes it an 18kilo loss so far!! My original goal for 12 months was 15-20 kilos, so we’re well on the way to surpassing goals! I also measured myself from the end of the last round and I’ve lost 8cms, mostly off the hips (that’s a very good thing!!!) I started this journey back in September and it has well and truly changed my life and who I am.

I’m hoping, for the sake of myself, that it hasn’t changed me too much. I’ve noticed that I’m always thinking about nutrition and exercise, but I have so many interests that I’ve been losing focus. For example, I haven’t done any creative writing in over a month. This makes me sad. When you’re living a ‘healthy’ lifestyle, or you’re trying to lose weight, you tend to concentrate and start to prioritize in regards to how to go about it. Unfortunately, I’ve neglected to prioritize the other things I love to do too. I must make a conscious effort to do this from now on.

I’ve been doing my dedication run this week and managed to run out another 19kms since my last blog post. I’ve only got 14 to go to have achieved the 45kms nominated. I have honestly found that having to be accountable has pushed me that little bit further, so to everyone that ‘liked’ and ‘commented’ to get me there, I thank you! The kms were for me, but they were also for you! I have a training schedule for a half marathon in 10 weeks that I’m trying to stick to. If I can stick to it, I’ll participate in the Canberra half marathon in April. I’m going to reassess my progress in about 4 weeks and see whether I should enter the 10km or go for broke! Wish me luck!

I’ve been contemplating the next step in my weight loss journey. Last night I was on the bed and pushing through the doona of fat on my belly and contracting my muscles. I was super excited that I could actually feeling my abs contracting every time I squeezed! Don’t get me wrong or let me mislead you, there is still a big belly in the way, and a layer of fat keeping everything nice and snuggly, but the fact that I could feel ‘something’ under there made me focused and determined to not stray from goals.

I have to say, I am determined and I am focused, but I am also very easily understanding how a person can to a point and think that “Oh well, I’ve already lost a bunch of weight, I can give myself a leeway every now and then.” For that I give myself a huge mental and physical slap and remember what it’s taken me to get here. When ‘they’ say blood, sweat and tears, ‘they’ weren’t lying! I’ve been on this journey for six months now and I can’t believe the changes taking place. I just have to remember that. If you have a day where you may stray, pick back up and move along. Just don’t make every day a stray day!

I have to sign up for the next round of the 12WBT and am still contemplating what I’m going to do. I am 2kgs away from my original 69kg goal, but to be in the ‘healthy’ BMI I think I need to be 65ish. I was thinking of doing the Lean and Fit program. I want to keep running, it’s definitely a mind clearer and sense of achievement every time I complete a run, but I also want to start getting stronger. I have limited upper body strength and my core needs more work! If you’ve done these rounds, or have experience with these type of programs I’d love to hear from you. I definitely need to work on the preggy belly and get those abs out and proud!!!

If you’ve never run before and you’d like to give it a try, I’d highly recommend the C25K program, that’s Couch to 5 km.  It will set you up to be running in no time! It starts out nice and easy and very achievable. If you’re an iPhone app freak, you can also download the app from iTunes to help you along! I’d love to hear if you’ve started this, how you’re going with it and what you’re getting out of it, if you start it or have done it!

For everyone doing pre-season of 12WBT let me know how you’re going with it! I’m excited to hear the new journeys and the return journeys!

Until next time! Be Safe and Stay Pretty everyone! Thanks for reading!

I have a Secret

At the beginning of this discovery, I had a goal. There was a goal to lose as much weight as possible, hopefully in the end, 20 kilos. There was also a tee is my drawer that had lived there for a very long time. It’s a ‘South Sydney Rabbitohs Women’s Fitted Tee’ and I have stared longingly at it for the better part of a year, trying it on and seeing it stick to my skin. Ugh. I refused to wear it, because it was horrible and it made me feel incredibly fat. As you know, I’ve lost around 10 kilos but quite often, I struggle with actually realising how much of an effort that really is. I grabbed the shirt the other day and I tried it on, curious to see if it finally fit. The joy I felt as it slipped over everything and DIDN’T cling! I was so excited!  Much to my Bulldog supporting, husband’s disgust, I could finally support my favourite Bunnies in public!!

I took a photo for evidence, and was actually impressed with what I saw. In all honesty, I didn’t even recognise myself. I still have a long way to go (in problem areas) but I promptly posted the pic on my Facebook account to share in my celebrations. From that, I received a lot of, “You look great, tell me how you did it?” and “What’s your secret?” I had to have a little giggle at the Secret question. These types of questions were obviously coming from people who haven’t been following my journey closely.  For those that have, you may already know the secret. For those that haven’t, I’m ready to finally reveal it. I’m about to tell you the secret to my success so far, but I can’t make any promises that you are going to like what I have to say.

The ways to lose weight successfully, according to what I’ve learnt:

You can’t just eat whatever you like

You have to count your calories 

You have to be accountable for ALL FOOD you eat, including the bad stuff

You have to sit up and take responsibility for the things you do

You have to stay focused on what you eat
(it doesn’t mean you’ll be eating rabbit food all day!)

You have to move……

Burning calories is the way to lose it and keep it off

You have to work-out in some form, 6 days a week

(that’s right, I said 6 days. I think this is the one that people will really cringe at. The crux of it is, not a lot of people want to do the work. To me that reads, not a lot of people are serious about changing themselves.)

I have been successful because I have made an effort to move around, jump around, burn calories six days a week. It takes determination and it takes a lot of focus, and me talking myself into it. I am not a morning person and in fact, I love my sleep, however as these results have started showing, I can honestly say that I love losing weight a lot more. I grumble, I groan and I complain to myself about having to do it, but there’s no other way to get the weight off, except for good old hard work. I know you want a magic pill, you want a super duper, awesome machine that you buy on tv, but I have used none of them. Before you turn around and say to me, I don’t have time, know that I have three children aged 1, 2 and 4. Even I have time to work-out. I have a few work-out DVDs and I use work-out apps on my phone. My current favourite is the Nike Training App (super awesome work-outs with prompts, videos and rewards!)

Another secret I’ve learnt is that you can talk to everyone about this journey and how you’ve done it, until your blue in the face. You can preach and try to convert them but……. No one is going to do anything until they are ready. I know that for the longest time I sat and said, “I want to lose weight” but I too didn’t want to do the work. I wasn’t serious about it. I’m serious now and as a result, I am seeing results. You have to commit. Plain and simple. Commit to a better you and it will happen.

Weigh-In Week 6 and Emotions-a loaded 8 letter word

Emotions—how one 8 letter word can mean so many things, or have such a huge impact on me is amazing. I feel that this week I’ve been emotionally fragile and on that ever riding non-stop rollercoaster of life, where the highs and lows never seem to fade.

I often go through and re-read my posts in the blog, to see how I’m going and where I’ve come from. I’m glad I do that, and I’m glad I have this to make it possible. I’ve found that some of the things I’ve written, I’ve actually forgotten I was feeling or experiencing.  I also noticed that at the beginning of the program and blog I was relying heavily on expressing emotions. You can see that from the little icons I would put at the bottom of the post.

Although I might say “I’m alright,” quite often it doesn’t mean internally I am. That was until this week. ((TMI warning)) It’s TTOTM (If you have to ask, you must be male!!?!?) and I’ve been feeling extremely flat and blah (refer to last post). I often get extremely lethargic and am in a lot of pain and do not feel enthusiastic about life at all. It’s one of those weeks of curling into a ball and sleeping and escaping. I’m happy to report that’s the old me! I did pout a little, feel a little sorry for myself and do a little scale hopping this week *slaps self on hand-we talked about this!* and I saw that the scales were moving in the up, up, up direction. Instead of pouting and getting shitty about it, I put on my tunnel vision and knew that lazing around, feeling sorry for my self would do nothing but make those numbers stay there, so I got off my arse and exercised. I kept it pretty light this week, but I still moved. I paid particular attention to the food I ate. I’m human; I’m normal. I had those terrible TTOTM cravings and wanted sugary, sweet, fatty useless food. My weekly confession: I tried 1/12th (yes, a tiny smidgen) of a piece of choc iced sprinkle donut that was bought over by a friend (who didn’t know any better). That one tiny bite was DISGUSTING! I couldn’t believe that I didn’t enjoy it at all. It was gross and the flavours sat on my tongue in a most unpleasant way. BOOM—at least we can tick that crappy food off my want list now! Last night I grabbed a handful of ‘hot chips’ that were in front of me (5 in total) and ate them, thinking they’d be yummy and delicious. Anyone who was around last night, when I did this, knows what happened. They were soooo gross. Even grosser than the donut! I felt oil in my mouth and I felt like I’d swallowed a cup full of oil and it sat in my stomach. I actually got nauseous and wanted to go and throw up. Lesson learned. My body is telling me I don’t need it and my mind has finally clicked.

You may “think” you want it, and the emotions that we all experience will convince as that we “want” it, but our body doesn’t “need” it and soon, you won’t even like it. How exciting, right? I think so!

Basically, what I’ve been rambling on about is the fact that Michelle says to “take the emotion out of it” — become disciplined and conscious of what you’re eating. Nowhere in the program does it say you can’t enjoy food. I enjoy food, quite a lot. I never thought I’d say I was looking forward to Lentil Spaghetti Bolognaise, but it’s one of my favourite menu items. Plan, be organised and you won’t be placed in a situation where you might make bad choices.

 The other most important thing I’ve learned from this week is to Never Give Up. It’s true to say that when things  seem ‘too hard,’ you just want to throw in the towel and give up, say screw it, why bother? It’s quite possible to  convince yourself that if the scales don’t move, then it’s not worth it and you’ve just worked out for  nothing…..Well there’s a reason to bother and it isn’t just that fact that you’ll feel such a difference in your life.  Your body, your attitude, everything will change—for the better. I’m not perfect and I’m not emotionless, but I know a journey worth going on is a journey full of experience and wonders and discovery.

Who wants to know about weigh-in?!?!?

YAY!!!!! Hard work and consistency DOES pay off. I am so excited about the results. I had set myself up to not be emotional if there was no loss, or a gain, because I knew that I was having my ‘off’ week. The results have just made me even more determined. I am 1.2kgs off of a 10kg loss. I’m writing this down to be accountable–I want that 1.2kgs gone next weigh-in!  I am also ‘officially’ down 1 pant size. I can fit into pants I haven’t worn in years and the current jeans I have keep falling down. Wooooo!! *throws sparkles in the air–the sprinkley kind, not my new phone!*

Thanks for all the support — I seriously love it and it helps to keep me in check and encourage me. I know that only I can do this and only I can decide what I eat and how I exercise, but I love knowing that there are people out there who might read this and think that if I can do it, they can do it, because quite frankly, it’s true — YOU CAN!!!!!!

And if you have one of those days where things seem like crap and you don’t think you can go on–do this:

Blah..that feeling you sometimes get

It’s true. I’m feeling blah. blergh. ikk. yuk. blah.

This doesn’t mean I’ve given up, nor does it mean I am not focused anymore. It just means I’ve hit a slight hill on my journey and instead of running it, I’m walking it. Slowly but surely wins the race, right? Let’s hope so.

This week is an ‘off week’ for me, for various reasons. Being a girl simply sux sometimes, and them’s the facts.

Soooo to keep me on track I’m going through and reading some quotes and remembering that this journey is a life-style change and not a temporary fix. It’s not something that I’m starting and not finishing. And it’s most certainly not something that I’m giving up on–ever.

When you feel like giving up, know that you’re only human and you will have days that make you feel like giving up, but be stronger than that and keep moving. It’s better than the alternative.

Join me tomorrow for Weigh-In Wednesday. I’m not promising big numbers will move, nor am I promising ANY numbers will move, down at least, but I am promising that I’m committed to it and I will not let the emotion of the numbers hinder all the hard work I’ve done and I’ll continue to do. That includes resisting the delicious donuts that were presented to me yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Climbing the Hills

This weekend seemed to be more of a struggle than usual; I’m not sure why.

Could it be that we’re heading into week 3 and we’re now becoming established with expectations?

Could it be that it’s that time when I’m starting to waiver in my follow-through?

I’m not quite sure. I do know that although I feel like I’ve been ‘off my game’ a little, in the same moment I can also say I achieved some pretty big milestones as well.

I guess I should stick with getting rid of all the negative things, pushing them away and focussing on the good.

I’ll get the negative out of the way so that we can be done with it!

I didn’t do very well in regards to food this weekend. In saying that, I probably didn’t do terrible, but for me I feel like I let myself down.

My husband has been struck down with the gastro bug *thank goodness no one else has it!* so I’ve been solo on food prep. I’ve stuck to the plan as much as possible. I miscalculated by Saturday calories and ended up indulging in a glass of wine thinking I had plenty to spare. When I double checked a calorie count on an ingredient I was horrified to see, I’d miscalculated by almost 100 calories ..ugh, which means I could have done without the wine. When we got to Sunday it had been 2 rainy days and the kids were stir crazy so a trip to the movies was in order. I’d had a couple of cups of tea and had been thinking about breakfast, but didn’t realise until I was driving to the movies at 9.15am that I hadn’t eaten anything. I’m confessing now that Popcorn and Diet Coke were all that I ate until 2pm when I got home (except for the coffee). For shame – I made sure that when I got home I had a healthy sandwich, and although I’d stopped for coffee on the way home I resisted the temptation of the pastries and pies in the bakery and the hot chips I could smell from the kebab shop.

This leads me into the positives of the weekend. Although I didn’t eat as well as I should have, by that I mean definitely didn’t eat ‘enough’ for the day on Sunday, I did manage to resist those impulse empty calorie purchases from the past. This is something to be celebrated! Not only am I helping my hips, also helping my pockets! I really do struggle all the time with not buying things to just ‘tie me over’ and to ‘cure the sweet tooth, the savoury tooth’. The recipes on the plan are actually great and it’s so nice to have so much fresh food and to feel the difference in portion sizes!

My major achievement that I’m here to celebrate is my Saturday work out.

As I’ve previously posted, I have managed to run before and run a distance, but in my current un-fit state I couldn’t even imagine. Saturday morning I did a warm up workout with my Ripped in 30 DVD and then I grabbed the dog (a Jack Russell Terrier) and my iPhone (love free apps) and I went for a walk/jog. I have an app that allows for ‘coaching’ so it prompts me. I am using this is my ‘learn to run’ again program. It was immensely helpful, telling me to start jogging, or to walk for 15-30 seconds before jogging again. (My HRM actually BROKE on Saturday so I couldn’t use that – another story – annoying, hoping to return it this week) I didn’t have any way of really know how many calories I was burning and on Saturday you’re meant to burn more than usual. I decided to just go and see where it took me. Having the dog with me really helped. I walked up many many hills (hence the title of the page!) and my legs were burning, but we kept going. Small steps, light jogs – moving, moving, moving. I went all over the place and discovered a whole industrial area just over the hill, behind my house! Who knew?! As a beginner I tried not to push myself so I ended up getting to 2min30 second bursts of non-stop steady pace running, 15 second walk and repeating. In the end, I managed to go 6kms! I was shocked and amazed and really damn happy!

Oh and on Sunday – I totally felt those 6kms in my legs, bum and thighs!! (this is a good thing right?!)

So with the bad, there is some good and, it’s a new week and a time to get back on track. I’m going to release the issues I’ve had and keep moving forward. Today and tomorrow are all new days and lessons are learned and carried on. We’ll see how everything is going on Wednesday Weigh-In!!!

Unconscious moments

Last night I came to a profound realization. How many times have you eaten something without thinking about it? I couldn’t even tell you. I didn’t even know I was doing it until I had eaten the last bite of chocolate! I was on the couch watching the news and my husband handed me some chocolate. I accepted and started eating it. As I was chewing the last bite, and enjoying it, I realized…I was eating chocolate!! I was immediately upset with myself! It was nice, but I didn’t need it! From that moment on my brain has switched on and I’m now consciously thinking before eating.
I haven’t even gotten into the guts of this program yet but am really pleased with the way it’s heading….
Emotions: Determined