Emazoning it…. Learning to walk before I run

This week has been a topsy-turvy week in the SydneyGen world of things-that-happen…..

Our youngest has been hit with a horrible sickness, and her usual vibrant self is nowhere to be seen. It’s taken 2 doctors visits to finally diagnose tonsillitis, so with the proper medication, I’m hoping we all get some sleep relief soon! Speaking of sleep…. an interesting thing happened to me last night.

I attended a free (absolute BARGAIN) one and a half hour session with Emazon (Stand Your Ground) thanks to the wonderful girls at Designed 2 Fit gym.  If you haven’t heard of Emazon before, she’s been on The Biggest Loser, and Australia’s Next Top Model. From her website: Emazon travels the country as a keynote speaker, presenter and coach. STAND YOUR GROUND is the renowned mind body workshop that has toured the country for over 5 years. A provocative and unconventional insight into our health, weightloss, self image, personal authority and self destructive behaviours.

Anywho… for an hour I got to put on some very cool red wrist wraps, that immediately got me into the ‘zone’ and belt out some boxing and get my mind into some focus points.. basically, I got to forget about the world and my life for an hour and a half. Whilst I really enjoyed the boxing aspect of it, and the way that Emazon made you micro focus, I got the most of the session at the end. She ran us through a breathing technique and relaxation, which of course I loved, as it w photo IMG_5234_zpsb9ac3a6a.jpgas very yoga-esque. Then, she spoke to us about some ‘techy stuff’ to do with our bodies, brains and functioning. As she was speaking I was listening and nodding along. Everything she was saying I was thinking, “yes, yes, yes that’s me, yes” … I don’t get enough sleep. I don’t sleep at the optimum times, I don’t handle my body correctly, and I’ve definitely done too much too fast in everything, to be able to maintain a proper, consistent form of living and weight loss.  I asked a question about how “us mothers with young ones” are supposed to get the “eight hours” sleep, when it’s a fantasy. The answer wasn’t as complicated as I thought. If I can’t get the eight hours, then it’s more beneficial for me to be asleep between 10pm-1am in the ‘deepest’ part of sleep. That means I start a going-to-bed ritual a lot earlier than I usually do. I turn off technology, I calm my brain down, and make it a habit to sleep sooner, rather than later. Surely that can’t be too hard!!

At the moment, I’m really unhappy with how I feel I’ve let myself go. In the last year I’ve gained 10kgs and I can feel every little bit of it. Interestingly though, instead of thinking I have to go hell-for-leather and start immediately.. it was pointed out, that in order for our bodies to not rebel on us, or go into shock, we have to ease into things. So, with that in mind, I am not jumping straight onto the 1200 calorie eating plan again, I am not going to attempt to run 8kms again, instead… I’m going to slowly ease my calories down to 1200 over the next two weeks, and I’m going to start walking as much as I can. This is my ‘say it out loud’ and I’m hoping you’ll hold me accountable!

I was very lucky to have a wonderful stranger gift me a ‘group session’ that she had won in the lucky door prize. I thought I was going to cry!! It’s those small things that need to push me. Last night I saw some people I hadn’t seen in a very long time, it was like a mini 12wbt reunion. I was so happy seeing them, and realised that by isolating myself, and not seeing them I have not been ‘surrounding myself with things that help’ … These were girls I climbed the highest mountain with (literally) and they’re the type of people who will gently push and encourage and you listen, because they’re going through exactly the same thing you are! So in saying that. I am also going to work out how I can afford regular gym sessions, one-on-ones and group training.  I’d love to go to the Emazon convention in October, but some things are beyond reach… for now.


Middle and Center for the Team Photo!!

Err so what was this post all about then? Ummm.. it was just me wanting to express that A: I don’t like the way I am right now. B: I know I can change this. C: I will change myself slowly and surely. D: I recommend you look up Emazon and check her out. E: The girls at Designed 2 Fit are awesome. F: I will surround myself with people that help me be the best version I can be. G: Tonsillitis in littlies sucks H: I don’t need to get through the whole alphabet because this post is long enough.

Until next time….  Stand Proud and JUST Be the Best You Can Be!

Chalk Boards & Goals



Hi There!

Long time, no post! I have been super duper busy, and neglected this little site for too long! It’s time to come back and try to make it a regular update again!

So.. this post is all about goal setting. I tend to be extreme. I either go all in with something, or I just go .. meh.
One of these things seems to be goal setting. When I did my first round of 12wbt I noticed goal setting was super important, and because I was so determined to reach some goals, I did go all in. The results spoke for themselves, so I’ve often wondered why I haven’t had much success since then. It’s obvious! I hadn’t been setting achievable goals!

I recently purchased a tin of ‘blackboard’ paint from Aldi. A super awesome buy that I was going to use to repaint the kids chalkboard that had been decorated with textas! I was pretty much addicted from the get go! I kind of wanted to paint my whole house in it so I could draw all over it!! Pretty sure hubby wouldn’t be up for that!! haha! So, I found a piece of board that goes to the kids whiteboard and decided I’d paint that. I was going to use it as a shopping list, but then I had a thought… what if I used it every day and put some small, yet achievable goals to work towards. I decided that they weren’t going to be ‘set in stone’ (obviously, it’s a chalkboard, not stone!!) and if I didn’t get ALL of them done in a day, it wasn’t going to be tragic. Like I said, I tend to be a high achiever and go all in, and then get disappointed if it doesn’t work out….

The results have been cathartic. Every day I get up and think about the goals I’d like to do today. Some are practical, some are fun, and some are to do with house stuff. Mainly though, they are reminders for me. Something for me to pass by and say “Oh, that’s right, I was going to do that today!”
I’m posting these via Instagram at the moment. Feel free to find and follow me if you’re not already – I’m at SydneyGen .. I’ve also posted them below, to give you an idea of what sort of goals I’m setting. I’d love to hear about your goals, how you think about them, set them, achieve them? What do you think is important? Leave me a comment!!!

P.S You’ll notice on one of them that there is a word “WOOF” and a picture of a “pocket with a sunshine poking out” .. this was on the weekend, when I neglected my poor chalk board. I soon came to discover, that if I didn’t set myself some goals, no matter what they were, the black dog decided to snuggle up for awhile. To me, this reaffirmed the need to give myself direction, in order to move forward!!! Lesson learned!

Jumping Back Into The Blog Life!

Yes, it really is a blog post! The first in …. 1-2-3 months? No, make that, all year!! Whoopsie! I’ve been so busy and the blog took a back burner, but I’m back!!! I’ve also changed the name of the blog and have decided to make it a general topic one, rather than a ‘weight loss’ one.

Since I’ve been gone I’ve done so, so many things!

In February I had the chance the meet Michelle Bridges at a book signing!! It was great to say Hello and Thank you to the person who’s helped to change my views and ways to live life!


In April I signed up and completed the Canberra Times 10km fun run. It was a great goal to have and was a really fun time. My husband did it with me and being his first time, it was a really great atmosphere.


In May, for the first time in the 5 years I’ve been lucky enough to celebrate Mother’s Day, I did not sleep in!!! Instead I participated in the Mother’s Day Classic and did the 4km walk. I was originally going to run, but hubs wanted to participate in the run, so I went in the next event. The kids had a great time getting faces painted, dancing the music and jumping around!


I joined a fantastic group of Sydney 12WBTers and we climbed Mt Kosciusko! The highest point in Australia! It was an AMAZING feeling and achievement and I was very, very grateful to get the last minute opportunity thanks to Rach, a fellow member of the 12WBT who couldn’t make it.

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I attempted a second round of the Michelle Bridges 12WBT, after a very successful 18kg loss my first round. Unfortunately I didn’t commit myself the way I should have and there was no progress, but no setbacks either.

I also had the opportunity to travel (alone!!!) to America and visit with some awesome people that I’ve known online, and in life’s past. It was absolutely wonderful! I went to Vegas and almost lost a whole day after experiencing things the way they should be!!! It was a very Hangover moment when I woke up in the middle of the day, I threw up, and discovered I’d lost half a toenail..oh and I think I was still sleeping in a formal dress I bought?!?  I hired a car and ended up with a Convertible Mustang, Yellow! My very own Bumblebee! I cruised along the highway from Las Vegas to Arizona and had the most amazing, soul-searching, quiet, experience. When “they” say some things are good for the soul, I think those moments where what “they” were talking about!


So why am I back to blogging? Well I am mainly doing it as a place to put my thoughts down, on life, love, everything in between, and also because after gaining 2kgs I’ve realised that I am not finished with my weight loss and fitness journey. There is still much to do. By acknowledging that here, I feel that I can keep myself accountable and have a place to diarise all the mundane, or the fun stuff! I’m still having my children involved with all things fitness and my 5year old son is always excited to join me on a ‘run’. We recently bought him a good pair of joggers and he can’t get enough of it!


I’m also on an “organising” spree with my life. That includes house, life and everything in between! I was recently introduced to The Organised Housewife blog and I am in love! Simple, easy tips to get things back in order! Yesterday I spent ALL day going through a handy-dandy check-list from the website and I have to say, I’ve never felt so focused or in control when it came to the housework! I’ve always wanted to be a 50’s housewife! You know the one? Clean house, dinner on the table, kids happy, secretly sipping vodka in her water glass all day long!!!

Here’s my first attempt at organising: 3 kids means 3 lots of bags and clothes that need to be sorted. I’ve now used our hallway as a bag station because I figured we always have to go through it to get to the front door, or to the back room where we live most of the time. I also created an art of the week spot, so that we can rotate the artwork, and finally get it off my fridge, which made it look so cluttered!


I’m also participating in the 20 Days to organise & clean your home challenge being run by The Organised Housewife blog I mentioned above. Pre-season tasks are the order of the day at the moment and the excitement is great! I’m holding on to hope I can complete this challenge and be more centred in the home and life!

On top of everything I’ve listed I’ve done many more things, and have also started university! I’m studying to be an Early Childhood/Primary school teacher. It’s been a life long goal of mine and the timing all fell into place. I’m doing it all online, which is an interesting concept, and am learning many great lessons in needing to be organised, prioritising, NOT-procrastinating, and to focus! I’ll have many, many years until I’m finally in a classroom, but all good things come to those who work hard!!

So that’s it…. We’ve got a long way to go, but everything is moving along nicely! I hope you’ll join me from time to time on this never ending journey called… Life!

Losses and Rewards

This is how I felt when I lost my polar watch

A few days ago I lost my Polar watch that goes with my heart rate monitor. Devastation doesn’t even begin to describe the emotions that I’ve experienced over these days. If ever there was a time that I thought I had a need for something, it would be now. I was extremely upset that I couldn’t find it anywhere. I usually take it off and put it in the same place, every time! Apparently I had neglected to do that the last time I used it (Friday) and it was misplaced. I remembered vaguely that my 15 month old had handed it to me and I’d thought that I better put that away in a safe place.

I slipped into a bit of a funk about it all and although I know I have deeper issues to be addressed, it was a lot to do with the watch missing. This watch is my motivator, my friend. It tells me how far I’ve gone and how far I need to go, it pushes me far more than I’ve been pushed before. I watch the numbers climb and I keep pushing on. So, to not have that really made me feel edgy and as though it wasn’t ‘worth it’ to work out, which I know is a terrible thing to say. I don’t need the heart rate monitor and in fact, for the first nine weeks of the last 12wbt challenge, I didn’t actually use one. I guesstimated, using the internet and websites that calculate. So now I wonder why I’m so reliant on this ‘tool’ that is assisting me. I mean, it’s not doing anything physically, it’s not weights, it’s not a piece of resistance equipment; it is simply a band around my torso and a watch that measures my heart rate and calorie burn.

I put the message on a Facebook support group that I was sad I’d lost it and immediately I was offered a ‘loaner’ watch. The people of the program are amazing and it’s one of the reasons I’m happy to go back for another round, but I digress. I happily accepted the loaner (Thanks Jackie!!) and was ready to go, although yesterday was a funky day (for completely different reasons – think house/kids/life stuff in general) so I pouted and didn’t work-out, although I did get roped into playing my sons wii star wars game he rented, which involved a lot of standing, jumping, and

throwing my arms about (a little incidental exercise, perhaps?!)

This morning my husband was up and out of the house for a run at 5.45am, he is amazing and is encouraging and makes me do things when I just don’t want to! He got up early, so that I could get out and go before he went to work! I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning, but I knew that he’d done that for me, so I trudged through and got dressed and strapped on the loaner polar watch and off I went. My heart wasn’t in a long, fast  run and I knew I had to get home for him to go to work, so I just managed 3.45km this morning, but it was enough to refresh the mind, wake-up and start the day. I got to the top of the hill and looked out at the sun shining and realised that it really was worth getting up and getting out. I’ve mentioned before that I’m not a morning person, never have been, however, dragging myself out and actually seeing the world come to life has it’s own special rewards. I also think my iPod is in freaky tune with me. It must have known that I was on Struggle Street today, because I put all songs on random shuffle and everything that pumped out had a popping, fun, running beat!!!!

When I got home I knew I needed to do some more, I was in the zone and wanted to keep the momentum, so I popped on the Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30, it’s only ’20 minutes’ which then turns into 30 with warm-up and cool-down. I love doing it, because it seems to go so quickly, but it also feels like a good overall work-out for the body. I was on the ground and turned my head to the side, during one exercise and what do I see under the couch?!?! MY PINK POLAR WATCH!! I can’t believe it! I swear both my husband and I looked under that couch, twice, but we didn’t see it! I’m thinking it was a light situation?! Hah! I’m so excited to have my friend back, and will be forever diligent of where I put it after my work outs each day!!

So today has started off well. I’ve managed to burn 572 calories this morning, I got to see a lovely sun-rise,  I’ve found my polar watch and the day has only just begun!

Moral of the story…… When you just get out and do it….The rewards are worth it
(look at that view! What you can’t see in this pic, is the Sydney City skyline, but I could see it!)

The other moral to the story?!? …..

Weighing in and running for it


Things are going well in discovery land, every day is a new day and I need to keep pushing through temptations and trying to make the right choices.

No, I don’t need that cookie at Mrs Fields’, even if it’s called a “nibbler”, how harmful could it be?? I didn’t choose to find out! I was standing longingly at the counter having an internal debate about it being ‘okay’ if I just got one with a coffee. Lucky for me, I’d just been in a few stores and tried on some clothes, fitting into mediums and size 12 dresses!!!! This gave me enough confirmation to walk away, so I did. My hips thank me for it, but even better, the scales today reflected the decision.

Today I jumped on the scales and it’s official! 71.0kgs! (156.2lbs) which makes it an 18kilo loss so far!! My original goal for 12 months was 15-20 kilos, so we’re well on the way to surpassing goals! I also measured myself from the end of the last round and I’ve lost 8cms, mostly off the hips (that’s a very good thing!!!) I started this journey back in September and it has well and truly changed my life and who I am.

I’m hoping, for the sake of myself, that it hasn’t changed me too much. I’ve noticed that I’m always thinking about nutrition and exercise, but I have so many interests that I’ve been losing focus. For example, I haven’t done any creative writing in over a month. This makes me sad. When you’re living a ‘healthy’ lifestyle, or you’re trying to lose weight, you tend to concentrate and start to prioritize in regards to how to go about it. Unfortunately, I’ve neglected to prioritize the other things I love to do too. I must make a conscious effort to do this from now on.

I’ve been doing my dedication run this week and managed to run out another 19kms since my last blog post. I’ve only got 14 to go to have achieved the 45kms nominated. I have honestly found that having to be accountable has pushed me that little bit further, so to everyone that ‘liked’ and ‘commented’ to get me there, I thank you! The kms were for me, but they were also for you! I have a training schedule for a half marathon in 10 weeks that I’m trying to stick to. If I can stick to it, I’ll participate in the Canberra half marathon in April. I’m going to reassess my progress in about 4 weeks and see whether I should enter the 10km or go for broke! Wish me luck!

I’ve been contemplating the next step in my weight loss journey. Last night I was on the bed and pushing through the doona of fat on my belly and contracting my muscles. I was super excited that I could actually feeling my abs contracting every time I squeezed! Don’t get me wrong or let me mislead you, there is still a big belly in the way, and a layer of fat keeping everything nice and snuggly, but the fact that I could feel ‘something’ under there made me focused and determined to not stray from goals.

I have to say, I am determined and I am focused, but I am also very easily understanding how a person can to a point and think that “Oh well, I’ve already lost a bunch of weight, I can give myself a leeway every now and then.” For that I give myself a huge mental and physical slap and remember what it’s taken me to get here. When ‘they’ say blood, sweat and tears, ‘they’ weren’t lying! I’ve been on this journey for six months now and I can’t believe the changes taking place. I just have to remember that. If you have a day where you may stray, pick back up and move along. Just don’t make every day a stray day!

I have to sign up for the next round of the 12WBT and am still contemplating what I’m going to do. I am 2kgs away from my original 69kg goal, but to be in the ‘healthy’ BMI I think I need to be 65ish. I was thinking of doing the Lean and Fit program. I want to keep running, it’s definitely a mind clearer and sense of achievement every time I complete a run, but I also want to start getting stronger. I have limited upper body strength and my core needs more work! If you’ve done these rounds, or have experience with these type of programs I’d love to hear from you. I definitely need to work on the preggy belly and get those abs out and proud!!!

If you’ve never run before and you’d like to give it a try, I’d highly recommend the C25K program, that’s Couch to 5 km.  It will set you up to be running in no time! It starts out nice and easy and very achievable. If you’re an iPhone app freak, you can also download the app from iTunes to help you along! I’d love to hear if you’ve started this, how you’re going with it and what you’re getting out of it, if you start it or have done it!

For everyone doing pre-season of 12WBT let me know how you’re going with it! I’m excited to hear the new journeys and the return journeys!

Until next time! Be Safe and Stay Pretty everyone! Thanks for reading!

Dedicating my Kms

It’s been a while since I’ve been here. Holiday season and all that!??! who knows, anywho it’s a new year which means it’s back to the path to a new me. New Year – New Theme, hope you like it!

When I left you I had lost 15 kilos and had gone from 89kgs to 74kgs. A huge achievement considering I had set that 15 goal for 6 months!! Over the last month I feel as though I’ve been losing focus slowly, although the lessons I’ve learned along the way have never truly left my mind. I think that has helped to overcome some of the fear that I would revert to old ways and gain, gain, gain!

During the time away from blogging I had a great little break with friends in Canberra and also had such a wonderful birthday! I decided that it was my birthday and I was going to give myself the best gift of no stress! It’s amazing how even when I gave myself this freedom and took the pressure off, I didn’t feel the need to go absolutely crazy! We saw We Bought a Zoo (Highly HIGHLY recommended!), enjoyed a beautiful mexican dinner and indulged in some delicious cocktails (Oh how I miss those empty calorific drinks!!)

Made with Love

Birthday Breakfast - One indulgence on a special day is acceptable - right!?!!!

A couple of days after my birthday I met up with a few fellow Sydney 12WBTers and we embarked on a bush walk in the Blue Mountains. It was a great day for it and although I didn’t do as many calories as I truly thought I would, it was a very enjoyable couple of hours and a wonderful achievement when we made it to the end!!!

So Many Steps!!!!

So that bought me to the next stage of getting these grams gone! I needed to find some additional motivation. I saw a post on Facebook by Jayne (a fellow 12Wbter) who had said she will dedicate 1km to each LIKE she got on her status. I was watching her numbers climb, climb, climb and thought, hmmm this might be a good idea, except there’s no way I’m going to get around to do over 60kms!!! So I set a few guidelines and asked my Facebook friends to help me start running again. I said I’d dedicate a km to each of them. In the end I got 41 people = 41kms, and I added the family to make it 45! I’ve started the runs, but must remember to try to get out there early as the summer heat is a killer!!

With everything I do, I need accountability so I’ve got the pics to prove it!! I’m 12kms down and each time I’m managing to improve the time.

Steady as she goes, isn’t that the saying? It’s definitely what I’m doing! I enjoy running, although I struggle sometimes, I just love being outside and

being able to clear my head. I saw this image on Facebook and it gave me such a chuckle that I had to share, for all those that feel they may not be able to do it, or I’m sure there’s a few of you who can relate…

Every day is not always roses and is not always great, and there have been many times where I’ve felt that I’ve been straying on the path of focus and achieving. I think our biggest critic is ourselves and that I need to work on a lot of things with my inner self so that I can have them reflect on my new outer self. There are many days where I still can’t see the huge amount of weight loss that I’ve achieved. I think it’s because I’ve spent so many years as the way I was? I’m not sure. I weighed in today and was down from 74kgs back from my last post to 71.9kgs!! Through all the small efforts and staying consistent within my limits and boundaries I am leading myself to success. I just need my mind to catch up! There are also times where I think ‘Wow, have I really done that?’….looking at those numbers, I am only 2.9kgs away from a 20kg loss!! Twenty freakin kilos? That’s just madness! That’s my 4 1/2 year old!! Anyway, I think I’m rambling now!!! I’ll leave you with another great capture I got from Facebook. I love Mish and everything she has helped me achieve, but I also love Jillian Micheals, and on her Facebook the other day she said something that I really needed to see and read at that very exact moment (the world works in those weird ways, hey?!)

Remember to believe in yourself and you will achieve. Thanks for reading, I hope to hear from you all and would love to know how you all spent your holidays and what fun things you did?!

Finale Celebrations and In Between Weigh Ins

Hi All!

I haven’t posted about last weeks finale celebrations because I wasn’t sure how to put everything into words (I know right, me…not knowing how to put things into words?!?!)

Basically, it was amazing, inspiring, fun and an opportunity of a lifetime.

Through the generosity of Mum looking after the kids and a ride in from a fellow 12WBTer  (thanks Sue!) I was able to attend the Finale Workout at Centennial Park. I was among 1000+ other people, celebrating our 12 week achievements!!!! It was an amazing vibe and there was so much passion and happiness in the air. Wearing my purple “Sydney crew” singlet it was great to be able to identify fellow Sydneysiders and say Hello to them and introduce myself, even if I’ve never met them before.

I thought the best way to show you was in photos, so I’m just going to post some up here…

Sydney Crew with Mish before the workout - already pumped to go!

Getting into it!!!!!

Why am I smiling? Oh right, a break in the routine!!

We did it!! Sydney Crew AFTER shot!! (What is UP with my face?!?!!!)

It was a brilliant morning and I was so glad I got to go. It truly was a celebration of the 14.1kgs I managed to drop on my own. I thoroughly enjoyed working out with others and hope that they can do similar things during the rounds (not just at end, that’d be awesome!)

Up until the Friday, I wasn’t going to be attending the finale party. We couldn’t afford it, nor could we find babysitters. Through the generosity and luck I was given a ticket by a fellow 12WBTer! (Thanks Diana)

It was a wonderful night and I was truly inspired by the people who were there. The night was a definite affirmation for me to come back next round and to smash my final weight loss before possibly getting into a Lean & Fit program. If they can, then I definitely can!

Me all dressed and ready to go!!!

***as a follow-up, I am now giving this dress away! Dare I say it, it was too big!! I spent all night making sure the top wasn’t falling apart or off and letting everything hang out! Even the Hollywood tape failed me!!! Another cause for celebration!!!***

and now…. the official round of 12wbt is over and the pre-season of the new round doesn’t start until mid-January, but that’s not stopping me! I still have just under 10 kilos to goal and I’m giving myself a head start. So without further ado .. another update:

This whole experience has been a change for life. So many small things are making sense and are making a difference. I recently read something on my Facebook written by a health advisor. She said something to the effect of: Use your calories like you would with money. Budget them. Don’t give up the things you really love, if you don’t want to, but instead put them within your budget.  I truly believe this is also a successful way to help you out. If you aren’t ready to give up the things you’re attached to, then don’t. Just be accountable for them, but also remember to think – does my body need this to survive, or am I just eating this because I’m emotionally attached to it!?! Food for thought.

This has been my mini mantra throughout - it just makes sense!!!


Thanks so much for reading about this journey. I hope in some way I’ve helped you out in your own journeys. I’ve appreciated all the wonderful words and signs of support. It’s meant so much to me! I’ll be back next round to blog lots and I’ll also be adding a vlogging component to the site. It’ll be easier for me to talk things out and you’ll be able to see me in all my tired, exhausted worked out glory!! Hope to see you then!!

When you just need to do it

Two posts in one day?!? Whoa Gen, settle down!!!

This is just a quickie, cause even those are worth it sometimes..wait…what….moving on!


I struggled out of bed today!! I’m definitely in the I don’t wanna stage! Just thought I’d share some cute pics from my morning go….

My 1 year old enjoys challenging me to work “around her” and her morning cuddles!!


how am I supposed to get anything done with this cutie in my lap? Extra weights?!!!!


Mummy’s little calorie inspector – better keep going, not much there!

Hope these made you smile like they did me! Just remember, you can do it anywhere, you just have to adjust!

It’s the End… but it’s only just begun

Hi Everyone! GUESSSSSSSSSSSS WHAT?????????????

I DID IT!! I survived to tell the tale of my 12 week body transformation journey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you believe it’s been three months already?? I can’t!! There have been bumps in the road, there have been teeny tiny set-backs, but in the end…there was joy!

It’s been a crazy ride and I’m not ready to get off yet! I still have a goal to achieve and am starting again tomorrow, from scratch! We’re putting the results of these 12 weeks aside, and we are going for gold again!

Soooo… here’s the summary:

If you’d have given me ANY of those numbers at the beginning of the program I would probably have scoffed at you!! I sit and stare at my before and after photos, still in disbelief!!! I am well on my way to being the person I want to be, and this program has been it for me.

I am going to blog more very very soon about feelings, but for now I just wanted to give you the final results!!! Thanks for coming along with me and for reading and commenting and blogging and texting and inspiring ME to be the best version of me!

Kicking the Can’t Be F***ed Days Away

Last week I had a severe case of the can’t-be-fucked’s (probably not even a word, but it is in my vocab!)

On reflection, I’m thinking those feelings and the ones I have at the moment are a result of lack of sleep.  Who knew sleep was so vital?

For the first time in a long time I went out and enjoyed some mid-week socializing! I attended an EP Launch for a singer I have recently discovered, named Matt Corby. A lot of you may know him from his Australian Idol days, but I didn’t have any idea he was even on the show, up until a few months ago! Anyway, whilst there with friends I indulged in a couple of cocktails. (Thank goodness for the AM work-out!) The cocktails were so yummy! I remember why I love them so much, just not loving the sugar content!!!!! I ended up in bed at 2am and then the next morning was up just after 6 with the kids.  It was the beginning of my two days of falling off the wagon.

For the next two days I decided I just ‘couldn’t be bothered’ working out. I have no idea why after 11 weeks my mind was slipping into this, but again, I’m putting it down to lack of sleep. It had been a few days of late nights, early mornings.  Luckily, on Saturday I attended a run clinic and was able to learn some pretty valuable techniques on efficient running. Although we didn’t do a lot of practical work, it was enough to kick-start my brain and body into get-back-int0-it mode and I realized that while taking the two days off of training was okay, it wasn’t acceptable as a long-term action.  I’ve never ever been a morning person (right, Mum?!) but throughout this program I’ve felt really good about getting up early and getting my workouts over with. This stopped for a few days and I very much enjoyed staying in bed that little while longer!! Unacceptable!

After having the two days off my body was a bit slow to get off the pace. Amazing what happens when you’ve been doing something for so long and then you just stop. Yesterday I finally rid the CBF’s by heading down to the park for a “Pain in the Park” session. I thought it was going to be boxing, but was just as glad that it was an hour circuit workout. Seeing the numbers on the HRM encouraged me to keep going and I felt so much better after it (even if I did still feel really tired). I took off for a quick jog/run around the park and ended up sticking to just under 1km before I realised I probably shouldn’t push myself.

This morning I had to give myself a mental pep-talk and repeat JFDI over and over. It’s the end of the challenge and for some reason I seem to be sabotaging myself by not caring and not wanting to work out. A ridiculous sentiment, considering how far along I’ve come. In the next few weeks as we head into Christmas, we’ll be without the ‘official’ program. Whilst that scares me a little, I know that the mind-set lessons and the knowledge I have gained these last few months will help me to prepare and be organised.  The moral of the story is to JUST F***EN DO IT!! Right? Right? YES!!!! Because saying that you’ll just leave it and doing it ‘tomorrow’ will not get the results today…. 

When I realized I’ve had the CBF’s, I needed to find a way to get myself out of the funk. What was it that would keep me going? I’ve concluded, it’s music. I am loving my re-emergence into the music scene, and especially the folk type music, or any cute guy with a guitar (call me shallow, I say it’s appreciation of talent *nods lots and lots*) I’ve been able to get lost and let my brain shut down and click into go mode by listening to the sweet sounds…And just because you’re here reading this, I feel the need to share some wonderful music with you!

Matt is such a raw and brilliant voice. I have thoroughly enjoyed getting lost in the haunting sounds…

and check out this new guy I also saw and met at the show. An awesome Aussie talent that needs loads of recognition. His songs are powerful and hold such strong messages: Jack Carty

Thanks for reading the mess of words. I thought it important that you know I’m far from perfect and I struggle a lot. The one thing that keeps me going is knowing that during the struggles and the times I just don’t want to go on, I’ve managed to lose over 13.5 kilos. I’m standing taller and I’m smiling more. To me, that alone is worth every struggle and challenge I set myself, both mentally and physically. Don’t forget: If I can do it, so can you!

P.S I felt it important to write this post out and not re-read over it. If I read over it, I would no doubt delete, change or modify what was written. These are my feelings in all their raw glory. For that, I apologise if it’s a bit muddled!!

Wednesday Weigh-In Week 11 + Revisiting Goals and Expectations

It’s week 11 of the 12 week body transformation program that I signed up for. I can’t believe it’s been almost 3 months.  In pre-season we set goals for ourselves. As this round comes to a close I thought it would be good to go back and see what the ‘pre-season’ goals I had written for myself were, and to check out how far along I had come. Well then, wasn’t I a low expectation setter!!!

1 month goal: lose 1-2kgs – run ANY distance without huffing and puffing — CHECK

3 month goal: lose 5kgs – Run without needing to stop after a few minutes – CHECK
Buy a pair of jeans in the ‘normal’ section – CHECK

6 month gaol: lose 10kgs – Run 4kms without stopping

As you can see, I blitzed 1 & 3 month goals and need a heavy re-evaluation!! As for the 6 month goal, I still have 3 months to get to the 4kms without stopping, but that should be helped along with the Run Clinic I’m doing this weekend through Mind Body Motion Fitness Solutions.

My new goals are to run as many fun-runs as I can leading up to a half-marathon. I’m thinking of giving myself about 6 months for this goal.

As for the weight – the numbers are in for this week! I’ve been pushing myself on the weekends and again, hit the 1000 calorie mark on Saturday and then attended a Boxing training class at the park on Sundays with a program called Pain in the Park with AC Fitness. Combined with at-home workouts and eating well I’ve lost more weight this week!

After yesterdays post I’ve had time to reflect and come to realise that I do need to be concentrating on how far I’ve come, instead of how far I want to go. In working towards success I must also celebrate the victories that I’ve achieved. I’ve said previously that you must celebrate the small things, in order to see the big picture. Looking at these numbers I surely can say without a doubt that I am smiling at my success.

If ever there was a time where I thought I would doubt myself, or I thought that I’d just do it tomorrow, it’s now. I’ve stepped up the plate and I’ve met the challenges set out for us and the changes that needed to happen, head on. I always seem to go into things enthusiastically and full-force, and I believe in one of the earlier posts I mentioned that I often start to fade and end up missing out on the completion of tasks. Or I get distracted and move onto other things. I decided to join up for this round because I knew I needed the help to stay focused and I needed the right person to tell me how it is and what to do. Seriously, this program has been that. A life-saver really.

I can’t say that this has been easy to do, but the moment I took control and responsibility of my actions it did become a lot, lot easier.

In saying that, it actually wasn’t all that hard to stop doing the things we’d been doing to sabotage ourselves. I remember a couple of months ago, my husband and I decided to add up a ‘typical Sunday’ in regards to food. A typical day when we didn’t really watch our food or portion sizes and we thought we were doing good, because we were having salad with dinner… I was HORRIFIED to see that it all added up to over 4000 calories!! I can’t believe I was putting that through my body, then sitting and being miserable because I felt so fat!!! The lessons in mind and body that this program has taught me have become so invaluable to me. Only last night my husband and I were discussing food and I pointed to a nice dessert in a magazine saying that it looked really good. He actually said to me that it didn’t really appeal to him. I nearly fell off my chair. This is the dessert man and the man who would sit and eat a whole block of chocolate, not three months ago! It’s as if our body chemistry has changed and we no longer crave that manufactured food!!  What a bloody wonderful thing that is!!! Although I did say I could go one of those gorgeous french pastries you find in the boutique bakeries!!!!

I’m a  huge believer in the program and if you want to change, then I say go for it. Do it. But know this…You have to commit over 100 % of yourself to the program and the lessons. Nobody can do it for you and nobody can change you, but yourself. People can ‘help’ you along with support and such, but in the end it’s you that has to do the hard work. It won’t happen overnight, but it will happen *insert hair flick!* and although times might get tough and you might want to give-up, it’s a lifestyle change,  not just a fad and not just an in-the-moment-ideal…a new way of life.. a new lease on life! Creating the best version of me that I possibly can.

The weather lately hasn’t been the best. We’ve gone from hot-as-hell to rainy-and-want-to-stay-in-bed weather! This morning was a definite CBF day but I thought I better get down and do something! Pilates seems to be my go-to when I’m in one of those moods. Rather than a high-cal burn it’s still stretching and toning muscles. It’s usually a quick and easy work-out except for this morning. The kids were in cuddly moods too! I just wanted to show you, to prove that YOU can do it too, that work-outs can be done when you have kids, you just have to adapt!!


To Be A Diamond Not A Basketcase

This post has been spurred on by feelings I’ve had developing for the past couple of weeks. You may have noticed I’ve been a little quiet on the blog front. My apologies for that, but I haven’t really made it a priority. The thing is, I made this video the other day to show the transformation I’ve had over the last 10 weeks and although I’m really happy with the video it also got me thinking about my mental state.

So far (without tomorrows weigh-in) I’ve lost 12.5kgs in the 10-11 weeks and over 40cms all round off my body. Now I know that is a HUGE number and that it’s a great achievement. I also know that I went and purchased a pair of jeans that were two sizes smaller than I would normally wear, which seemed an almost impossible concept a couple of months ago, however, I still feel fat and frumpy and my self-esteem is taking a hit.

It’s not that I want to give up on the program or the lifestyle, because that’s definitely not it. I love this new way of life (okay, saying I LOVE exercising, is a HUGE big fat lie – but I am enjoying what happens AFTER I exercise!!! The feeling you get of knowing it’s done and you’ve done something good for yourself!) and the way we’ve changed for the better. I guess it’s just me being the impatient Capricorn that I am, and wanting the best results now.

It’s funny….I’ve had people tell me they can see I’ve lost weight and that I’m looking good, but I know I can look better! When I look at myself in the mirror or just look down, I still see a big fat tummy (granted I know that I have my tummy because I have 3 beautiful kids I wouldn’t swap for the world) but I just want it gone!  I will admit that last night I went to the movies, and I happened to look side-ways in the mirror and noticed that it’s not ‘as big’ as a sticky-out-tummy as it used to be but ugh..it’s still there, sitting right in the middle of my short stature, making it’s self known.

Conceptions of how we look are a funny thing. I had a girl from high school recently tell me she didn’t think I was overweight during that time. Funny she said that; high school was a really big period of struggle for me, because everyone else seemed skinnier than me.  I also had a friend who’s known me for about 3 years now say that when she was watching the video she didn’t realise I looked ‘that big’ before we started this transformation. Again, it’s so funny how everyone sees everyone else.  I guess this is where the pressure of society comes in. I don’t feel pressure from society to be thin, and I most definitely don’t feel pressure from my loved ones or friends, but I do feel pressure from myself, to be smaller and to be fitter and to be a nicer person.

How do you stop putting pressure on yourself and get to a frame of mind where you’re happy with progress and know that what you are doing and have been doing is the right thing?

I want to be the diamond – not the basketcase


I feel like this program is making me a better version of me. My husband and I were discussing how with all the changes in eating and exercise that we’ve made, we definitely have a better mind-set. We’re both in a better place, but I just feel like I’m not quite there yet.

This isn’t a pity-post, so please don’t read it as that, it’s just a post on feelings. It’s just me, putting my feeling in a post, so that I can look back and reflect on my silly thought patterns in the months to come! It’s another ROBOT day where I didn’t want to get out of bed, didn’t want to exercise and didn’t want to even think about watching what I eat because I just couldn’t be bothered…. Having now been 11 weeks into this program, along with the help of Michelle’s mind-set lessons and support via other program members I now know .. CAN’T BE BOTHERED DOESN’T BURN FAT! You’ve got to get out there and JUST FREAKIN DO IT… so I did….and now it’s done for the day!

I’ll see you all tomorrow for Wednesdays Weigh In!! Only 2 more weigh ins on this ‘offiical’ round, but I’ll still be around to blog and update in between. Since I got my fabulous Polar HRM I’ve been trying to smash up the Super Saturday Sessions and have managed to hit 1000 this past weekend again. I also did a boxing group class, so I’m fairly sure that’s going to help move things along.

My Progress in Pictures

This week during the 12WBT we had a weekly surprise to do a video/word blog of our progress so far, and what the program has meant to us. It had to be under 3 minutes, which can be a little difficult when you have a lot to say like I do!  I did a quick 3 minute video that can be found here:


I went out for a mid-day workout and during my Super Session Saturday inspiration struck and I came up with an idea for another, longer video. This one expresses a little bit more about how much this has meant to me and what it’s doing to make me who I am. It’s just over 6 minutes, so it didn’t qualify for the ‘challenge’, but I’m kinda happy with it. I hope you enjoy.



Wednesday Weigh-In Week 9

I have a busy day today and wasn’t sure when I’d get to the computer, so I’ll update you quickly through a phone post!


Today I went for a morning run. I had to briefly pause and capture this image as it was too good to give up.. I can’t believe I used to sleep through this time of the morning!

So last week I had a 200 gram gain, which I attribute to some relaxed
Food choices and not enough exercise. This week I had completed the 8km run and was convinced there would be a
Loss of some type. I’ve been watching my food and making sure I workout. Amazing what happens when you do that!!!



I am 100 grams away from 12kg loss!!
Lots and lots and lots of Focus and hard work…….. We’ve got 3 weeks (less than) in this round and I’m excited that I’ve been able to smash my early goals.

At the beginning of the pre-season tasks my Goals were to lose 5kgs in 3 months and run 1km without stopping…SMASHED IT already!! Oh and my 6 month goal was to buy clothes in the “normal” area of a
Store! I was able to do that the other day!! I bought a size 16 jeans!!! My goal is 12 and it’s creeping closer and closer! I just have to put one foot in front of the other….. Here’s another early morning pic I took today….un-fun thing about Summer outside: scanning for snakes and the bloody early morning fly population!!!!!


Mini Milestone Week 8 Smashed

My running bib and spot prize "visor" I won

Holy Grilled Cheesus what have I done?!?! That’s exactly what I thought Saturday morning after picking up our running bib and timing chip for the Brooks Spring into Shape Race 2, at Parramatta Park. You see, my husband and I talked ourselves into changing our distance from 4km to 8km!!!

It’s been seven years since I’ve ‘ran’ any distance of length and I guess I was up for the challenge??  Definitely up for the challenge! It was a beautiful Sydney morning and hubs and I had left the kids at the in-laws and headed into Parramatta. Due to changing the distance we had time up our sleeves, so we popped home and had a quick coffee! Nothing like that little extra oomph to help out! I was actually nervous. I knew in my heart that I could do this, but it was such a big step. I’d been on YouTube checking out running videos and technique to brush up and to prevent injury, and I was raring to go!

Watching everyone come over the line for the 4k race was great and I tried to clap for everyone, knowing that it’s such a huge effort to get out and do any type of distance. I spent the 20 minutes before the start reining in my excitement and nervous energy so that I could use it to my advantage!

Hubs and I at the START - why are we smiling?? We're crazy! We're just about to torture ourselves and we're smiling!

A quick group warm-up and we were ready. I would say there were about a hundred participants, and when the buzzer went off, we all pushed forward.  I had my iPod on and my ‘running track’ music pumping the whole way. The km markers seemed like they were a great distance apart (ha-ha, yeah yeah, I Know, they were 1k apart!!) but each time I saw them I pushed that little bit harder. Going around the first time and onto the second lap I knew I’d made the right choice to change to the 8k. I felt extremely determined. I wasn’t worried about my time, although I was trying to get less than 8 minutes because that is what I’d been doing on my regular flat runs.

The scenery was lovely (erm..I may be talking about the shirtless footy players that had finished training, sorry hunnnni!!) One of the great things about running is anyone can do it! There were so many people of different ages, different shapes and sizes!  With each step I took I knew that this was the right choice for my mini-milestone. As I was coming onto the 7k marker, my iPod switched to “This is the best thing that has ever happened to me” and I couldn’t help but break into a huge smile. This whole journey, the 12WBT journey, has truly been the best journey I’ve had in a very, very, very, very, long time, if not ever!   My husband had left me behind half way through, he’s taller and slightly faster and I didn’t want to hold him back! It was really great to run into the final few metres and have him with me, smiling and encouraging me!!!

The adrenaline shot through me as I crossed the finish line, knowing I had finished it! I had run the 8kms in approximately 1 hour 2 minutes! (There’s been a glitch in the system and my time hasn’t been recorded. I sent an email and they’re having the timing manager look into it).  I walked a few times, to catch my breath and recover, but I am really happy with my efforts!

We did IT!!! Now we can smile and have a valid reason!!! Mini-milestone SMASHED!

I just want everyone to know that being in the right frame of mind and challenging yourself will reap the most awesome benefits!!! I feel great and can’t wait until we do our next event!  I’m also going to do a running clinic at the end of the month, to get to the right ‘tools’ to succeed. I’m definitely looking forward to that!

I have a Secret

At the beginning of this discovery, I had a goal. There was a goal to lose as much weight as possible, hopefully in the end, 20 kilos. There was also a tee is my drawer that had lived there for a very long time. It’s a ‘South Sydney Rabbitohs Women’s Fitted Tee’ and I have stared longingly at it for the better part of a year, trying it on and seeing it stick to my skin. Ugh. I refused to wear it, because it was horrible and it made me feel incredibly fat. As you know, I’ve lost around 10 kilos but quite often, I struggle with actually realising how much of an effort that really is. I grabbed the shirt the other day and I tried it on, curious to see if it finally fit. The joy I felt as it slipped over everything and DIDN’T cling! I was so excited!  Much to my Bulldog supporting, husband’s disgust, I could finally support my favourite Bunnies in public!!

I took a photo for evidence, and was actually impressed with what I saw. In all honesty, I didn’t even recognise myself. I still have a long way to go (in problem areas) but I promptly posted the pic on my Facebook account to share in my celebrations. From that, I received a lot of, “You look great, tell me how you did it?” and “What’s your secret?” I had to have a little giggle at the Secret question. These types of questions were obviously coming from people who haven’t been following my journey closely.  For those that have, you may already know the secret. For those that haven’t, I’m ready to finally reveal it. I’m about to tell you the secret to my success so far, but I can’t make any promises that you are going to like what I have to say.

The ways to lose weight successfully, according to what I’ve learnt:

You can’t just eat whatever you like

You have to count your calories 

You have to be accountable for ALL FOOD you eat, including the bad stuff

You have to sit up and take responsibility for the things you do

You have to stay focused on what you eat
(it doesn’t mean you’ll be eating rabbit food all day!)

You have to move……

Burning calories is the way to lose it and keep it off

You have to work-out in some form, 6 days a week

(that’s right, I said 6 days. I think this is the one that people will really cringe at. The crux of it is, not a lot of people want to do the work. To me that reads, not a lot of people are serious about changing themselves.)

I have been successful because I have made an effort to move around, jump around, burn calories six days a week. It takes determination and it takes a lot of focus, and me talking myself into it. I am not a morning person and in fact, I love my sleep, however as these results have started showing, I can honestly say that I love losing weight a lot more. I grumble, I groan and I complain to myself about having to do it, but there’s no other way to get the weight off, except for good old hard work. I know you want a magic pill, you want a super duper, awesome machine that you buy on tv, but I have used none of them. Before you turn around and say to me, I don’t have time, know that I have three children aged 1, 2 and 4. Even I have time to work-out. I have a few work-out DVDs and I use work-out apps on my phone. My current favourite is the Nike Training App (super awesome work-outs with prompts, videos and rewards!)

Another secret I’ve learnt is that you can talk to everyone about this journey and how you’ve done it, until your blue in the face. You can preach and try to convert them but……. No one is going to do anything until they are ready. I know that for the longest time I sat and said, “I want to lose weight” but I too didn’t want to do the work. I wasn’t serious about it. I’m serious now and as a result, I am seeing results. You have to commit. Plain and simple. Commit to a better you and it will happen.

Something good in every day

I saw this image today and it really made me think about how far I’ve come in the past 8 weeks. I’ve been through a fair bit in my 32 years. I feel like I’ve been on the roller coaster of emotions and the operator wasn’t letting me off. That was before I was empowered through this transformation. Another bloody cliche coming up–get yourself organized and your priorities straight and you will be much happier. For the longest time I felt like I was slipping on the negative nelly path. No offense to Nelly, but it’s just not the path I want to be on. I want to be over on the Positive Polly one, where they have smiles and
Rainbows and everyone visits care-a-lot…ok ok, you got me, the kids are starting to creep into my thoughts, but I secretly do love their new obsession
With the Care Bears…just call me Funshine! I feel as though I’ve digressed terribly! What I’m trying to say is, not every day is going to be awesome and wonderful and a success, but…….if you sit down at the end of a shit day, reflect and put the bad stuff away and find at least one good thing that happened…then there is hope….Hope for happiness, hope for success and hope for tomorrow.


Weigh-In Wednesday Week 8 – Whoops

Did you know that in order to lose weight you actually have to eat? Yep! Completely and totally true! Guess who hasn’t been eating the right amount of calories? If you guessed me, you’d be right. *Insert Big Sigh* ….A busy week of party preparations for Miss 1 and a lack of being organised has led to me not being prepared with food and therefore, reverting to my old ways of ‘not eating enough’.  What does this mean? It means the numbers moved a little in the wrong direction this week. Let’s get those “Numbers” out of the way, so we can move on and re-focus.



Darn it! I did not want to see that red, but it’s giving me focus and motivation to make sure it doesn’t appear again. Now, where did I go wrong?  Obviously, I was unprepared and did not plan out my weekly food choices or snacks. Life with 3 small children means that there is always a lot to do and I’ve found this week that when I look at the clock, ‘it’s too late’. *Hitting self in head and yelling to pull it together* The whole point of this is program is that Michelle gives you the tools, she gives you the menu, the food list, the exercise plan. All you need to do is organise yourself with it, and execute. Must-do-this-from-now-on.

I know that over the past couple of weeks, I’ve slipped slightly on my food choices and have allowed myself some alcohol and a couple of cupcakes. Big mistake.. BIG – HUGE – MASSIVE! It has done me no favours and I now know that it’s all my fault the numbers didn’t move the way I wanted them. Scrapping the ‘treats’ and going back to the way I was in the first 6 weeks. Clean and focused.

So now we’ve gotten the negative nelliness out of the way, let’s move on…..


How about some good news??? It’s measurement time!

I haven’t updated you on the measurements in 8 weeks, so this should look good, right??

I hope so!


I’m fairly sure I’ve moved down to a comfortable size 16, all my size 18 clothes are hanging off me, but as is with everything, I don’t want to go out and buy new clothes, until I’m at my goal size! Only have 2 sizes to go.. or even more!

I attended my first group training on the weekend. It’s named Pain in the Park and is run at a local park. It was really great to get out in the sunshine and to meet fellow program members. I’ve been training alone, and it can get quite lonely. It was great to have someone telling me in person, how to do things, and also to have fellow people encouraging and working along side you. I never thought I’d smile or laugh so much while training. What’s up with that?!!!!! It’s rightly named Pain in the Park, as for 2 days after I was in so much pain!!!! I guess that means it works!! It’s a great feeling to ache for all the right reasons, not because you’re sick!

Big news for the week is that this weekend, hubs and I are entering :

It’s a little bit exciting! We’ve arranged the babysitters and are polishing the shoes! It’s only 4kms to start with, want to start slow, but it’s our first step (badaboom). If you’re reading this and are in the area, or are competing in it as well, look out for us! I’ll be in my 12wbt Purple tank top huffing and puffing and dying slowly!

Well that’s it for me this weigh in day. I need to go and eat some breakfast and work on a workout!!! I have a few more things I want to talk about, but I’ll try to do that during the week. I realised I can blog from my phone, but I don’t think it’ll be all pretty and stuff.. oh well, when the words come, they come!

I have printed out my previous Motivation poster I posted, and now have it on my bathroom mirror….. It’s quite inspiring to look and read it and burn it in my brain that I CAN DO THIS!








Wednesday Weigh-In Week 7

It’s a double celebration today and a very busy one, so just a quick blog post—I’ll do a more detailed one tomorrow, I have a few things I want to say!

First off, it’s my youngest daughters 1st birthday!! I can’t believe a year has gone by, but she is a joy and is truly a very happy baby—which makes my life a lot easier, especially with the other 2 terrors gorgeous darlings!

In typical style, she enjoys the cheap stacking cups over the expensive doll!


I’ve also FINALLY DONE IT! It’s taken 7.5 weeks of commitment and focus but I’ve finally done it! I’ve cracked the 10kg loss!!! “Officially, it’s 10.1kgs” and I am more than thrilled!  It was actually unexpected as I’ve felt myself feeling a little unfocused and slipping in regards to socialisation.  I’ve managed to start wearing Size 14 work-out gear and whilst it is ‘snug’, I can still move in it and don’t remember the last time I’ve worn 14. I must admit, I am very unimpressed with the clothing styles/sizes though. I’ve tried on other things that are 16-18 and they haven’t really ‘fit well’. I’m just going to keep going and not purchase any clothes until I can fit into a comfortable 12, at least!!!





I checked out my BMI and to move from Obese to Overweight I only need 1.7 points… that’s a little bit exciting!

My mini-mantra is focus, believe, achieve…. I don’t remember who says it, but they were spot on! It’s about being mature, not letting your inner-voice pout and tell you that it’s okay to eat what you don’t need, or to not exercise today, and it’s also about wanting something so bad that you’ll commit to it.  It’s all about organisation as well! Know what’s coming up (whether it be a party, a night out or a picnic), plan for it, and make your choices around it. That way, you will succeed and continue to!

Weigh-In Week 6 and Emotions-a loaded 8 letter word

Emotions—how one 8 letter word can mean so many things, or have such a huge impact on me is amazing. I feel that this week I’ve been emotionally fragile and on that ever riding non-stop rollercoaster of life, where the highs and lows never seem to fade.

I often go through and re-read my posts in the blog, to see how I’m going and where I’ve come from. I’m glad I do that, and I’m glad I have this to make it possible. I’ve found that some of the things I’ve written, I’ve actually forgotten I was feeling or experiencing.  I also noticed that at the beginning of the program and blog I was relying heavily on expressing emotions. You can see that from the little icons I would put at the bottom of the post.

Although I might say “I’m alright,” quite often it doesn’t mean internally I am. That was until this week. ((TMI warning)) It’s TTOTM (If you have to ask, you must be male!!?!?) and I’ve been feeling extremely flat and blah (refer to last post). I often get extremely lethargic and am in a lot of pain and do not feel enthusiastic about life at all. It’s one of those weeks of curling into a ball and sleeping and escaping. I’m happy to report that’s the old me! I did pout a little, feel a little sorry for myself and do a little scale hopping this week *slaps self on hand-we talked about this!* and I saw that the scales were moving in the up, up, up direction. Instead of pouting and getting shitty about it, I put on my tunnel vision and knew that lazing around, feeling sorry for my self would do nothing but make those numbers stay there, so I got off my arse and exercised. I kept it pretty light this week, but I still moved. I paid particular attention to the food I ate. I’m human; I’m normal. I had those terrible TTOTM cravings and wanted sugary, sweet, fatty useless food. My weekly confession: I tried 1/12th (yes, a tiny smidgen) of a piece of choc iced sprinkle donut that was bought over by a friend (who didn’t know any better). That one tiny bite was DISGUSTING! I couldn’t believe that I didn’t enjoy it at all. It was gross and the flavours sat on my tongue in a most unpleasant way. BOOM—at least we can tick that crappy food off my want list now! Last night I grabbed a handful of ‘hot chips’ that were in front of me (5 in total) and ate them, thinking they’d be yummy and delicious. Anyone who was around last night, when I did this, knows what happened. They were soooo gross. Even grosser than the donut! I felt oil in my mouth and I felt like I’d swallowed a cup full of oil and it sat in my stomach. I actually got nauseous and wanted to go and throw up. Lesson learned. My body is telling me I don’t need it and my mind has finally clicked.

You may “think” you want it, and the emotions that we all experience will convince as that we “want” it, but our body doesn’t “need” it and soon, you won’t even like it. How exciting, right? I think so!

Basically, what I’ve been rambling on about is the fact that Michelle says to “take the emotion out of it” — become disciplined and conscious of what you’re eating. Nowhere in the program does it say you can’t enjoy food. I enjoy food, quite a lot. I never thought I’d say I was looking forward to Lentil Spaghetti Bolognaise, but it’s one of my favourite menu items. Plan, be organised and you won’t be placed in a situation where you might make bad choices.

 The other most important thing I’ve learned from this week is to Never Give Up. It’s true to say that when things  seem ‘too hard,’ you just want to throw in the towel and give up, say screw it, why bother? It’s quite possible to  convince yourself that if the scales don’t move, then it’s not worth it and you’ve just worked out for  nothing…..Well there’s a reason to bother and it isn’t just that fact that you’ll feel such a difference in your life.  Your body, your attitude, everything will change—for the better. I’m not perfect and I’m not emotionless, but I know a journey worth going on is a journey full of experience and wonders and discovery.

Who wants to know about weigh-in?!?!?

YAY!!!!! Hard work and consistency DOES pay off. I am so excited about the results. I had set myself up to not be emotional if there was no loss, or a gain, because I knew that I was having my ‘off’ week. The results have just made me even more determined. I am 1.2kgs off of a 10kg loss. I’m writing this down to be accountable–I want that 1.2kgs gone next weigh-in!  I am also ‘officially’ down 1 pant size. I can fit into pants I haven’t worn in years and the current jeans I have keep falling down. Wooooo!! *throws sparkles in the air–the sprinkley kind, not my new phone!*

Thanks for all the support — I seriously love it and it helps to keep me in check and encourage me. I know that only I can do this and only I can decide what I eat and how I exercise, but I love knowing that there are people out there who might read this and think that if I can do it, they can do it, because quite frankly, it’s true — YOU CAN!!!!!!

And if you have one of those days where things seem like crap and you don’t think you can go on–do this:

Blah..that feeling you sometimes get

It’s true. I’m feeling blah. blergh. ikk. yuk. blah.

This doesn’t mean I’ve given up, nor does it mean I am not focused anymore. It just means I’ve hit a slight hill on my journey and instead of running it, I’m walking it. Slowly but surely wins the race, right? Let’s hope so.

This week is an ‘off week’ for me, for various reasons. Being a girl simply sux sometimes, and them’s the facts.

Soooo to keep me on track I’m going through and reading some quotes and remembering that this journey is a life-style change and not a temporary fix. It’s not something that I’m starting and not finishing. And it’s most certainly not something that I’m giving up on–ever.

When you feel like giving up, know that you’re only human and you will have days that make you feel like giving up, but be stronger than that and keep moving. It’s better than the alternative.

Join me tomorrow for Weigh-In Wednesday. I’m not promising big numbers will move, nor am I promising ANY numbers will move, down at least, but I am promising that I’m committed to it and I will not let the emotion of the numbers hinder all the hard work I’ve done and I’ll continue to do. That includes resisting the delicious donuts that were presented to me yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weekend Quote


Who am I? What have I done with myself? Where’s the old me? To be honest, I’m starting to figure out who I am, I’m starting to realise I’ve put that other person away, for life, and the old me has turned into the new me. I’m not talking about a miraculous body transformation-that takes time, but I am talking about the person who got out of bed on a Saturday morning and by 8.30am had already completed Jillian Michaels Ripped Week 2 and a 20 minute Zumba session! All before the girls were awake! I feel revitalised!

Although the last two days have been quite emotional and I’ve felt really low I know that I have needed to push through these feelings and know that it’s a change, it’s a life-style and it will make me better. It already has.

I’m not that person who wants to stay in bed all day. I’m not that person who would rather eat pizza than cook something quickly (or find a healthy fast alternative) and I’m not this person who say’s Fuck It, I Give Up.  Be the best person you can be and don’t give up…ever.

P.S – if you know who said this quote I’d love to know. It feels very Jillian to me, but I’ve googled and can’t seem to come up with an answer







Weigh-In Wednesday Week 5

I have a confession to make. I have always been one of these people that wanted to lose weight and I would tell myself, eat a salad, drink more water, it’ll be okay you can exercise tomorrow. I was never committed to it and in my own way I was talking myself into making it seem okay to pick up the chips or eat the cheese and bikkies with a glass of wine. I was ‘all talk’. Disney was correct in saying, “the way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing.”  I remember the exact moment I made the decision to join the Michelle Bridges 12 week body transformation. We were at Mums and she had made a beautiful roast, as she is prone to do! I was tucking into the remains of the cauliflower cheese and I felt heavy and full, but I couldn’t stop. I had a reality moment and knew that if I did this for the rest of my life, I wasn’t going to be happy with myself and I wasn’t going to be happy in general.

I need to make a CHANGE. I needed to do something for myself, and to make everything click into place. Of course I knew I needed the right tools for this. I’m so glad I bit the bullet and spent the money. It’s only 5 weeks into the 12 week program and hubs and I have already commented on what a cheap investment it’s been. You can’t put a price on health and happiness, cliche I know, but it’s the truth. A builder can’t build a house without the right tools, just like a person can’t change their lifelong habits without the right tools. Michelle has been able to give that to us.

I’m not saying the last five weeks have been easy. At times they have been hard, however it’s amazing what happens when you put the pressure aside and just do things. I’ve spent many a day pouting and not ‘wanting’ to do exercise, but while I’m pouting I’m thinking, If I don’t get up and do at least 20 minutes, then what am I going to achieve? Nothing..Nothing will change, it will be the same as it always has been, which was unhappy. Why would I want to keep making myself unhappy?  With a kick in the pants I usually complete a work-out DVD and feel fantastic afterwards. Of course I usually feel exhausted, but I know that I’ve given it my all and contributed to the change that is happening within me. 20 minutes is not a large commitment of time within a 24 hour period, but it’s a hell of a lot of time in life.

I never thought I would be excited to eat healthy, fresh food or to exercise. Coming from the girl who spent a lot of her teenage years sleeping all day on the weekends or eating Chips and Gravy, this has been a long time coming. It’s true when you hear that if you don’t enjoy it, you won’t succeed. However, I find that although I might not like what I’m doing at the time (plank position is NOT easy!) I know that the burn I am feeling and the pain is worth it in the end! Yesterday, I went out to complete my 2nd part to my fitness test. The 1km run. Back at the beginning of the program I clocked 11:40 for 1km. Poor poor form, however we know that I haven’t been moving or exercising in a long time. I set off to prove to myself that the last five weeks haven’t been nothing. I knew I was going to improve on that time. I started with a brisk walk to warm up and then set the Runkeeper app to pace me, however I forgot to factor in the 30 minute walk – 2 minute steady jog – then the 1 km run. I made it to 800 meters when it told me my average pace was 10:40. I knew this was impossible! I was huffing and puffing and pushing myself. I stopped and checked the app and realised I’d set myself up with the extra time, which wouldn’t calculate correctly. *Insert face-palm here*. I took a two minute rest and re-set the app to a solid 1km program to actually time me correctly. I set off and pushed myself as hard as I could. I knew the only way I would succeed is to push… push through the burn and breathe…. I think the results speak for themselves:

The fact that I shaved 3.38 minutes off my 1km time in only five weeks is testament to the program. If I hadn’t lost any weight, at least I know my fitness is improving. I feel like I’ve always been healthy, but never quite fit! I plan on smashing this time again in four weeks, but I want to come back to the enthusiasm issue. I was so excited that I’d done this that I pushed myself for a light jog home, but would you believe, I was jogging with a Smile! I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. I had proved to myself that I could do it and I did it! I’m sure I looked a little crazy to the people I was passing on the path, but I didn’t care. Even when I saw the two extremely fit female joggers pass me I didn’t care. I knew I’d made a personal decision to change myself and I have; I am.

This brings me to today’s week five weigh-in. I said last week that I could taste the ten kilo mark and I am determined to get there as fast as I can. I think I knew that I would have to push hard this week, to make it count and so I did. Going the little extra and making myself move is paying off. I truly understand the quote I’ve put up on the left. Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out.  It’s not something that will happen overnight, or by doing something one off. You need to constantly work at it and know that the small efforts you are putting in, whether it be saying No to a glass of champagne *sobs* or saying Yes to the opportunity to go for a walk. It all pays off. I really am making an effort not to get hung up in numbers. By overcoming the need to constantly see the numbers changing, but to actually stop and listen to my body and know that I am feeling better, both physically and mentally, I know that I am already a success. I’ll admit, seeing the numbers move is definitely incentive and adds to the feeling.

I’m excited and proud to give you the results for this week:

I am so incredibly proud and excited at these numbers. I knew after small losses I needed to put in the time and effort to achieve the results. I’m very happy that my body hasn’t let me down!!!

Like I said earlier, this whole situation is far from easy, there are struggles and self-doubt and sometimes I have a split second moment of wanting to give up. Then I snap out of it and realise how stupid that is, considering the great results I’m achieving! I feel like a better person inside, I feel happier and although have the three kids can sometimes make me feel like I’m going completely crazy, I know that I’m handling it a lot better and I don’t feel so ‘stressed’. I want to throw things and say I can’t believe all the cliches are right, but they are… you will feel better, you will notice a difference and you will be making a change for life.  I saw the below image of Facebook this week and have decided to print it out and put it on the bathroom mirror.  It’s a great self mantra to have.

That’s it for today, thanks for reading the ramble! I believe it’s the longest post I’ve had to date!! It’s a Double Celebration so I had double to talk about!!!!  I absolutely love hearing from everyone, and the encouraging messages I’m receiving on Facebook and Twitter are keeping me excited and determined! Thank You!!!

Oh and being called a Legend by Michelle Bridges, kind of helps!

Cupcakes… Nuff Said

For those that don’t know me–I love Cupcakes.

It’s true. I love them. I love looking at them. I love smelling them. I love buying them. I love eating them! I’d say I love to bake them, which I do, but honestly, I’m more than happy just to eat them! My favourite is the good old vanilla cake with vanilla butter-cream frosting. The bottom left picture on the right montage are from my favourite bakery in Sydney, My Little Cupcake They are divine, delicious, amazing and mouth-watering. I love them!

Every Wednesday my son goes to daycare. Usually my 1 & 2 year old and I go to the local cafe and indulge in a coffee and cupcakes (obviously, they have babycinos and I have the ‘cawfee’) and we spend a little ‘girl time’ together. I miss those days.

Since being on the program I haven’t had a cupcake. I feel like I’m dying inside. Okay, not really, but I do miss those tiny morsels of goodness that you don’t have to share with anyone else. Depending on where you get a cupcake from really determines the calories. While there are quite a few places that have minimal calories, I’m afraid of the ‘other’ ingredients in them. What makes them taste so good? It’s probably not something that’s really good for you! Anyway, I digress….. The reason for sharing this is because I’ve been able to rein in my self-sabotage control and know that I don’t need a cupcake every week to make myself happy. As much as I want, I want something more. I want to be happy with myself and I want to like my body. Unfortunately the humble little cupcake doesn’t factor into this equation. I still love cupcakes, I’ll always love cupcakes, so I’ve compromised.

Next year there is a huge meet-up in Las Vegas, NV for an online community I’m a part of. I would love nothing more than to make it over there. First, I need a job (I didn’t get the job I applied for, a completely devastating blow to me but we’re moving on) and then I need to come up with the money for the trip. Everyone knows that every little bit helps, so I’ve bought myself a little incentive. Instead of eating a cupcake, I’ll now use it to save! Presenting…my cute new Cupcake Money Box!!

Things I’ve learned so far: You don’t need to sacrifice the things you love, you  just need to find a way to work around them. I’m working my way around wanting to eat cupcakes by using that money I would have spent on one (at least $3-$4) and putting it into this money box, so that I can fulfill a dream of going to Las Vegas, NV and also visiting friends in the States that I haven’t seen for a very very very long time. Wish me luck. At this stage, there is no money tree in the back yard, but like this weight-loss journey has taught me: If you hunger for something enough, it will happen.

Self-sabotage and becoming a clean eating nut!!!

I haven’t blogged much besides the weigh-in days because I have been in a zone for my end goal and that requires me spending a lot more time away from my computer! Absolutely usually unheard of from me, but there’s no burning calories sitting on the couch, tapping fingers!

A lot of the lessons I’m learning in these 12 weeks is all about self- sabotage. The fact that you know something isn’t good for you or right for you, but you do it anyway. You know the one: that Freddo frog, that piece of cake or that glass of wine. It’s not of any value to you physically, only emotionally. For those who know me, my husband works in the Wine Industry. Of course, for the longest time this has worked favourably for us, wine in the fridge all the time, and endless supply of deliciousness at my fingertips. It would be nothing for me to have a glass or two a night, or indulge in a bottle (or two) on a Friday/Saturday night. Who knew how much it was hindering my efforts!?! Did you know there are over 100 calories in a glass of wine *gulp*!!!

This past weekend I attended a formal function with my husband. These events aren’t always the ‘most exciting,’ but it’s a lovely night out, we get dressed up, have good food and get away from the kids for a few hours! This past one I decided I was sick of the rotation of dresses I always wear so I asked my friends if they had anything I could borrow. In the past, I haven’t been anywhere near a ‘size’ I think would work for borrowing clothes, but I was feeling good and confident and also hopeful that the kilos I’ve dropped already would make a difference.

I ended up with over 8 dress selections!! Some of them didn’t fit—I still have a few kilos to go for them, but never fear they’re on my radar for future events! The one I chose was perfect. It was comfortable, I felt good in it and it fit (all incredibly important pre-requisites to fill!) My friend also let me borrow some awesome heels. I’m only 5’2” so not on the tall side! I must admit, I usually go to these events and feel a little short and frumpy. I can proudly say, for once, I didn’t feel ‘frumpy’. I know I still have a long long way to go, but I actually felt confident. I held myself tall (with a lot of help from the heels!) and I had my shoulders back. I also wore a size I’ve NEVER worn, or at least I can’t remember ever wearing! While my clothes are nowhere near the size I wore, the dress was a very generous wrap dress that I’ll savour as my first size 12. That’s my ideal clothes weight and it’s helping to keep my goal in check and my path in focus.

Me teetering on very high heels!

Killer SPARKLY heels I got to wear!

Like I said earlier, I would usually booze up at these events, for entertainment purposes (!) but with all my goals steadily being achieved lately, I went into a focus zone and knew I had to be strong. I could not self-sabotage all the hard work I’d done up to this point. It wouldn’t take much at all to undo the hard work, as crazy as that sounds, a bottle of wine would have destroyed me. I gladly accepted water on the night and the food was tailored perfectly (those events usually are, thankfully!) I confess, I did indulge in 2 ½ glasses of sparkling wine (but that was after I checked how many calories I’d consumed that day!!!) I didn’t regret it at all and I savoured them.

The night was good and we both left with a clear head (and I could walk in the heels!!) When I got up yesterday I was a little regretful for having the sparkling so I jumped on the scales and was very happy to see they hadn’t moved in an up direction. *phew* Self-sabotaging is something that takes effort to acknowledge and to stop. The temptation is put in front of us on a daily basis, including marketing via tele, magazines and online. Instead of indulging in the chocolate anymore I stop and ask myself; does my body need this to work? What benefit does my body get from this? Will I be making myself go back 3 steps by having a temporary fix? I don’t think so. I’m not saying that I’ll deny myself for the rest of my life and that I’ll never indulge in a bottle of wine, or a piece of chocolate, but I am saying that I will withhold from that for a little while. Until I get to my goal!

Hubby and I all set to go - Hubs has lost 10kg in 5 weeks!!

I also have a little mantra that I constantly repeat to myself: Do not eat unconsciously. Think about what I’m putting in my mouth and remember if it’s not natural and ‘clean’, it’s likely not good for me.

This moves me onto my next topic! Clean eating… Who knew?!?! I have become a little obsessed with what can only be described as “DUH, why wouldn’t you?” type of food. Clean eating is all about non-processed, natural food. I’m proud to say we’re doing a great job at not eating anything from a ‘box’ or with ‘extra ingredients’. The food on the program IS delicious and healthy and tasty and good for you. Guilt-free eating is the best! I’ve discovered The Gracious Pantry and she is amazing. She has all these recipes listed that are ‘clean’ ingredients, some of them are amazing (including the desserts!) Take a look at her blog and tell me that taking a little extra effort doesn’t look worth it!! I’m excited to have so many options to cook great food, once our program for this round is complete. I also want to add that since being on the 12 week body transformation, we’ve not spend AS MUCH on food!!!! We have a menu given to us and we’ve found that most of the shopping is done in the fruit and vegetable section! It makes so much sense!!! I can’t stop talking about clean eating to EVERYONE I see (I apologise to my friends for the bombardment of my nutty ways!) and I also apologise to the strangers who I talk to as well!! Okay, let me be honest…..I’m not sorry, I’m excited!!!!!! Come to the Other Side my friend! Let the Force guide you!!

Anyway, I’ve rambled enough for now and really need to get moving and take the kids for a walk. I’ll leave you with a few pics of the past week. I love the pics of my kids doing “crunches and lunges”. They are constantly asking when we’re going to exercise?!! The only thing I have to watch is Mr4 who is very interested in the ‘boxing’ part of my workout!  I have a long way to go, and I will make it, I know I will. It’s not easy, it takes focus and it takes determination to want it! I want it!



Thanks for reading! I love to hear your feedback!! I’ll catch you all on Wednesday with some good news .. *positive thinking*

Thank you Mr. Jobs

 As you are more than likely aware, we lost a very important man today. Steve Jobs passed away after battling pancreatic cancer. I’m writing this post to Thank Mr. Jobs in my own way. Almost 2 years ago now, I saw the light and got an iPhone 3GS. From that moment on, my life changed. Now, my hubs might say it changed for the worse, but I say the better. It’s true, the phone is basically another appendage and I carry it everywhere! I remember one time as I was getting in the shower, my husband said “You’d take that in the shower if you could get a waterproof cover, wouldn’t you?” I jumped and said, “You can get those?” He just shook his head and rolled his eyes!

The reason I am thanking Steve is because, he has helped me lose weight and gain control of my life! Without my iPhone, I wouldn’t be using myfitnesspal to track and control my calories and I wouldn’t be using all the runkeeper apps, or the pedometers. Running along to the beat of my iPod and knowing that I can just keep going. Through this technology, I have been able to lose almost 10kgs (to date). I’d say that would not be the case did I not have this technology at my fingertips!

This quote was floating around the interwebs today, and I can’t express how much I believe it’s so poignant to my weight-loss journey.

We are the ones that are in control of our lives, and we are the ones who will make a change! Don’t waste time not striving to be the person you can be and the person you know will make you better.  You are the only one who can do it -so what are you waiting for? Get out there and believe it, and do it!


Rest In Peace, Steve.






Wednesday Weigh-In Week 4

It’s Wednesday Weigh-In again! This time, for week FOUR!

We’ve been doing this program for a month already, I can’t believe it! The time seems to fly! Honestly, I have not been looking forward to this weigh in at all. Last week was a really miserable week. The whole household suffered from gastro and the meal plan included a lot of Tuna and meals I wasn’t too enthusiastic about. This caused me to become unorganised and in the end, totally fail my week! I felt jumbled and inevitably, I didn’t do as much ‘working out’ as I should have been doing. There seemed to be many things getting in the way and I didn’t get to get out and jog, which depressed me! These are not excuses, as I still managed to do some at-home workouts. It’s quite possible I set my expectations too high sometimes, who knows.

One thing that my husband and I have discussed a lot is that we’re in this for the long run. It’s a lifestyle choice for us, and that means we’ve changed our eating habits, and what we keep around the house. I’m also enjoying the empowerment of having the supportive friends and family that are around me. It’s amazing what happens when you surround yourself with positivity. Even at your low-light, someone is there to pick you up and shine the torch brighter.

I have learned a valuable lesson of being organised! I know this is a part of the program, but I’ve definitely experienced it for myself now!  So, this week we were organised, we’ve shopped, we’ve stocked and we’ve got our meal plans and menus ready to go!

This week, marking our fourth week, it’s also a revisit to the Fitness Test.

I’m pleased to say I have improved on a few things (I’m yet to do my running test). I managed to wall sit for a lot longer than 11 seconds, although I was 5 seconds off moving to the next level, and out of beginners! I will conquer that next time!!! I also managed to move up to Intermediate in my push-ups, although those too, can be improved a lot more. I’ve never had a lot of upper body strength!

The weigh in results are:

Whilst less than 1kg is not ideal, I’d like to take the time and celebrate the fact that I no longer have 700 grams holding me back. I have rid it for good. I am celebrating every gram gone and I just happen to have 700 reasons to celebrate. In saying that, I also know that now is the time to pick up my game and to move it.  So, with that I sign off and leave you images of me dancing around my living room to the sound of the Madagascar Lima’s “I like to move it move it, I like to move it move it, We like to—-Move it!!”


Weigh-In Week 3

Hi All!
I’m back and I”m suffering! I have the horrid, dreadful gastro bug! Thanks to my wonderful husband for sharing!!!

Not one to let me get that down, although I felt terrible yesterday I made myself do an express 20 minute Zumba DVD, otherwise I just felt lazy!

We got new scales yesterday!!! They are shiny and black – not as tempting as the red ones then! I feel like I’m not giving myself enough commitment to the program, and by that, I don’t think I’m burning enough calories. It’s something I will work on over the next couple of weeks.

Here are the numbers as of this morning:

I am thrilled with that and am looking forward to those numbers travelling in the right direction; that’d be down. I’m looking forward to next week, where we reach the 4 week mark and do another fitness test and take measurements.

Before I go I wanted to give my husband a shout-out and an awesome epic high five!

He’s been following a calorie controlled diet and has been eating the same food as the program and in 3 weeks has managed to drop ‎7.2 kgs!! An amazing effort to be celebrated!! Well Done!

I’m Determined not to give up – even when I’m feeling at my lowest…

Wednesday Weigh-In Week 3 Delay

We’re at that time of the week again but I’m afraid I’m going to have to delay the results.

Over the past couple of days we’ve noticed that the scales may have been ‘dropped’ and are showing odd amounts of numbers. When my husband jumped on them they stated he was at least 10 kgs more than he was last time (which is not possible, considering he’s been suffering a 5 day battle with gastro!)

When I hopped on them this morning they showed that I was back to my beginning weight. Now, I would normally be completely shocked and distraught about this happening, but there is absolutely no way that I can weigh the same as I did 3 weeks ago.

Exhibit A: I tried on a pair of jeans that are a size less than I normally wear and I could fit into them. They were slightly snug and I give myself another week or two before they will be comfortable and wearable (in public!)

Exhibit B: I tried on another pair of jeans that are a size less than normal and was able to bend, stretch and walk in them comfortably and wore them out in public!

I haven’t been as ‘strict’ as I should have been and struggle to eat appropriate snacks and calorie counts which I know will hinder proper results. So I’ve decided, I shall dust off this minor bump in the road, wait for a new pair of scales and in the mean time keep trying to ‘smash it’ and eat right.

(I did weigh myself the other day and it showed another loss of 2kgs – bringing the total to 6.6kg loss / 7.42% weight loss – we’ll re-evaluate these figures once we get some good scales; if they’re correct then I am going to be beyond stoked!!!)

My first 5kg goal loss was rewarded yesterday with a new pair of running shoes! My old ones were dead and I was excited to see the pretty, shiny ones in the store!

My first reward! Instead of Chocolate, I have Shoes!

I’m yet to try them out (we bought them yesterday and I had a bit of minor stomach bug which meant no physical activity..) but I have a feeling that they’re going to help me improve even more on my fitness.

My 10kg goal is to have a day at the spa! I love nothing more than to go to the day spa and relax but it’s a luxury that can’t  be afforded lately, plus it’s not very comforting to try rolling on a massage table and feel like you’ll break it with your  weight!

This is a goal definitely worth working towards! I can’t wait.

Something I’ve learned about goals: You can have one big goal for the end, but to get there, you need to break it down, analyse it and create realistic, smaller goals. I want to lose 20kgs but I know realistically, that won’t happen in 12 weeks. Therefore, my first smaller goal is to lose 10kgs in 12 weeks, and then continue on for another 12 weeks and hopefully lose the next 10. My breaking it down it doesn’t seem like an impossible. Smaller victories (such as first 5) can be celebrated and create an on-flow effect of feeling proud and knowing that with the work and effort – it can happen.

That’s all I have to report at the moment – I’ll let you know how the weigh in goes with the new scales.

Thanks for all the ongoing support and for taking time to read and follow my journey. Destination: Unknown, but it’s going to be Fabulous!

I’m Discovering Myself One Jog at a Time

Today I was feeling really lazy. I don’t know why, but my motivation had parked itself and didn’t want to move!

A gentle reminder to myself - No Excuses Allowed

It got until late afternoon and I realised I really needed to exercise in some way. I needed to, but what was I going to do? I was going a little stir crazy with the kids and my husband must have realised as he suggested I go for a run again. (We’ll call it a jog from now on, because that’s what it is!)

I think that this week, my Jack Russell Terrier couldn’t love me anymore! She is absolutely thrilled with the jogs and we’ll be going at it for ages and she still has the energy to run around the off leash dog park!

Today I’m celebrating a new discovery! A discovery that the 12 week body transformation program does work! I know, we’re only in week 3 and it’s pretty early for me to be talking, but let me prove that point.

When I did my fitness test almost 3 weeks ago, my 1km run timed at 11:40 (terrible terrible!!!)

I’ve only been out for a couple of jogs in the last 3 weeks, the biggest one being on the Saturday, 6k journey. Today I managed to keep a steady pace and get my average to 10.10 mins a km and I actually peaked at 8.06mins a km! Whereas in the Fitness test I could only ‘jog’ for a minute at a time before I was huffing and puffing and having to stop to a walk, I managed a good 8.30 solid non-stop steady jog.

I’m using a Runkeeper app on my iPhone and it’s fantastic. It has a ‘coaching’ section and gives me verbal prompts (over the sound of the rocking Workout Mix I have) so that I am always on track. With it, I managed to do almost 4k’s today!!!

I know it’s not much, but to me, it’s a discovery of an ability I knew I had inside. It’s refreshing to get outside and to see new parts to the neighbourhood. I “may” be taking the dog along so that she can drag me along when I feel like giving up!!!

Bring on Daylight savings, so I can keep these outdoor cardio sessions Alive!!!

Climbing the Hills

This weekend seemed to be more of a struggle than usual; I’m not sure why.

Could it be that we’re heading into week 3 and we’re now becoming established with expectations?

Could it be that it’s that time when I’m starting to waiver in my follow-through?

I’m not quite sure. I do know that although I feel like I’ve been ‘off my game’ a little, in the same moment I can also say I achieved some pretty big milestones as well.

I guess I should stick with getting rid of all the negative things, pushing them away and focussing on the good.

I’ll get the negative out of the way so that we can be done with it!

I didn’t do very well in regards to food this weekend. In saying that, I probably didn’t do terrible, but for me I feel like I let myself down.

My husband has been struck down with the gastro bug *thank goodness no one else has it!* so I’ve been solo on food prep. I’ve stuck to the plan as much as possible. I miscalculated by Saturday calories and ended up indulging in a glass of wine thinking I had plenty to spare. When I double checked a calorie count on an ingredient I was horrified to see, I’d miscalculated by almost 100 calories ..ugh, which means I could have done without the wine. When we got to Sunday it had been 2 rainy days and the kids were stir crazy so a trip to the movies was in order. I’d had a couple of cups of tea and had been thinking about breakfast, but didn’t realise until I was driving to the movies at 9.15am that I hadn’t eaten anything. I’m confessing now that Popcorn and Diet Coke were all that I ate until 2pm when I got home (except for the coffee). For shame – I made sure that when I got home I had a healthy sandwich, and although I’d stopped for coffee on the way home I resisted the temptation of the pastries and pies in the bakery and the hot chips I could smell from the kebab shop.

This leads me into the positives of the weekend. Although I didn’t eat as well as I should have, by that I mean definitely didn’t eat ‘enough’ for the day on Sunday, I did manage to resist those impulse empty calorie purchases from the past. This is something to be celebrated! Not only am I helping my hips, also helping my pockets! I really do struggle all the time with not buying things to just ‘tie me over’ and to ‘cure the sweet tooth, the savoury tooth’. The recipes on the plan are actually great and it’s so nice to have so much fresh food and to feel the difference in portion sizes!

My major achievement that I’m here to celebrate is my Saturday work out.

As I’ve previously posted, I have managed to run before and run a distance, but in my current un-fit state I couldn’t even imagine. Saturday morning I did a warm up workout with my Ripped in 30 DVD and then I grabbed the dog (a Jack Russell Terrier) and my iPhone (love free apps) and I went for a walk/jog. I have an app that allows for ‘coaching’ so it prompts me. I am using this is my ‘learn to run’ again program. It was immensely helpful, telling me to start jogging, or to walk for 15-30 seconds before jogging again. (My HRM actually BROKE on Saturday so I couldn’t use that – another story – annoying, hoping to return it this week) I didn’t have any way of really know how many calories I was burning and on Saturday you’re meant to burn more than usual. I decided to just go and see where it took me. Having the dog with me really helped. I walked up many many hills (hence the title of the page!) and my legs were burning, but we kept going. Small steps, light jogs – moving, moving, moving. I went all over the place and discovered a whole industrial area just over the hill, behind my house! Who knew?! As a beginner I tried not to push myself so I ended up getting to 2min30 second bursts of non-stop steady pace running, 15 second walk and repeating. In the end, I managed to go 6kms! I was shocked and amazed and really damn happy!

Oh and on Sunday – I totally felt those 6kms in my legs, bum and thighs!! (this is a good thing right?!)

So with the bad, there is some good and, it’s a new week and a time to get back on track. I’m going to release the issues I’ve had and keep moving forward. Today and tomorrow are all new days and lessons are learned and carried on. We’ll see how everything is going on Wednesday Weigh-In!!!

Overcoming Week 2 Hurdles

Not gonna lie – I’m a little disappointed!!! In the same breathe, I”m a little excited!!! How can this be, you ask?

Well…. today Mum came with us to watch the kids have their swimming lessons (Hi Mum, have I told you lately how proud I am of your achievements, and YES I can notice and difference already! Woot Woot!) and when we came home I insisted she look over my Heart Rate Monitor instructions to see if she could get it to work. I mean, what else are Mum’s for, but for fixing problems, plus I knew she could do it *winks at Mum!*

She indeed DID get my Heart Rate Monitor working and Wahoooooo we started to celebrate with the fact that I could finally get a calories burned reading and proper Heart Beats per Minute! I was eager to get this show on the road and finally get those calorie numbers up. Up until today, I’ve been using a ‘calorie estimator’ to determine how much I’ve done. Well…didn’t I get a rude shock when I started working out and the numbers very very slowly started moving. After 20 minutes of Zumba we were still in the double digits. *scoffs* Not good enough!! I then put on a Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 DVD and went hard for another 20 minutes; just getting into the triple digits now. *scoffs – are you freakin kidding me* I was under the assumption that I should be aiming for 400-500 calories burning a day. Oh my goodness. I put on an Intensity Cardio DVD and started huffing, puffing, jumping and moving and after 30 minutes the HRM finally clocked over 200. That was it, I was exhausted! I’d done 70 minutes, but had only burned 215 calories *insert sad face* I mean – What the FIRETRUCK is that all about?!? The calorie estimator tells me I should have burned almost 600 calories.

What do I do? I’ve been really kinda bummed out about it, but after a hot shower and some reflection I’ve decided I need to pull myself out of the funk I’ve been in for the past couple of days and be really proud of myself for getting up off the couch and actually Moving. I haven’t moved this much in over 10 years, and for that I need to stop beating myself up and be happy. I guess through this whole journey it’s going to take small steps to make a big reality, but as I’ve said before…I’m a now kinda gal, and this challenge is definitely making me pull myself into line!

I’m sticking to the food plan, and even if I’m not a fan of the meals, I”m making sure I keep under the 1200 calorie a day range. I feel better. I think I’m sleeping a little better (I think I’d sleep fantastic, if I didn’t have kids coming in at all hours of the night) and although I’m wishing for major changes, I’m being realistic and saying that I think I can feel and see some small changes in my body.

Another MAJOR challenge I have to overcome is Scales..Yup, you read right… Scales. I’m having an emotional relationship with our set of scales right now, and I need to break up with them. You see the problem is, I want to step on them…all-the-time. I want to know what I’m doing is working and I want to see that in numbers. Now, I know this is WRONG and that’s why I’m working hard on the break up. They are a pretty red colour, but I know I must not be tempted. I must work to stay off them until Wednesday Weigh-Ins. I find that if I jump on them and it moves in a direction I’m not particularly fond of, it can set off my mood for the rest of the day/night. I’m writing this out, so that I can be accountable to NOT step on the scales but once a week!!!!!

Cue Pic of Scales with a big red X through them – Gen – DO NOT STEP on the scales unless it’s Weigh-In Wednesday!!

That’s it for now, I’m off the weekend to hopefully “Smash it” and get some cals burned! My usual Friday night Wine is put on hold for a few months, and although I miss it, I’ll replace it with tea and dream of how stealthy I’ll look holding a glass of vino with my new slim fingers!!! (you may laugh at that visual..I did!) And I’ll work on the triple P theory:

Until next time…..

Oh Oh Oh and Let me take this opportunity to say a Great Big WAY TO GO to my husband who’s taken this whole lifestyle change on with a complete amount of Positive and is seeing the effects of it himself! I’m also already seeing a difference, as are the scales! Way to go Babe! x

Wednesday Weigh-In Week 2


I have to be honest and tell you that I was scared to get up this morning and weigh myself. I have been eating right and I’ve been moving at any opportunity I can but I also feel that in the last 2-3 days I haven’t done as much calorie burning as I possibly could. I’m not sure what happened to my mind-set but it started to lag. I knew this would come, just didn’t realise it would come so soon! We’re only a week and a half into the challenge and we have a long way to go so I have to pull myself together and keep going!

After weigh-in this morning I can now say that I am more than motivated to move. I was worried I wouldn’t lose or it would be a small loss, and although a loss is a loss I was looking for numbers. I was thrilled when I weighed myself! Half asleep I managed to read through the scales and see the numbers have dropped!

We are now down a TOTAL of:


I am absolutely astonished, excited and amazed and completely, utterly motivated to keep those numbers moving!

The self-control is a lot less challenging than I thought. I went to Gloria Jean’s yesterday and when I would usually indulge in a Banana Bread or Pear & Raspberry Bread (yum) I actually bought some fruit & nut mix (after checking the packet!) Mochas are still my vice but I’ve cut down rapidly!

I am enjoying the food on the program and find that at night it’s quite enjoyable cooking something new and cooking with fresh ingredients. When I ‘plate up’ and we sit down at the table it’s a nice feeling, and then realising that the portion sizes are ‘more than enough’ makes me think of all those meals that I piled on my plate and ate, regardless of whether I needed that much, or most likely, I didn’t!

I think I’ve managed to get a Double Jogger pram from someone, just need to arrange to pick it up. If I do then I plan on having Cooper ride his bike and the girls in the pram while I go for a jog! On the days Cooper is at day-care, or next year, he’ll be at school, I’ll be able to pop the girls in and get out and move, move, move! I was at the park the other day and Cooper insisted we play chasings – who knew a 4 year old could out run a 32 year old! Wow, that was a reality check to get fit!

We’re only in the middle of week 2 but I’m ready to keep going. Goals seem achievable now, more than ever.  I never thought I’d be able to shift the first 5 kilos, but that’s because I’ve never really tried before. If I’d known it was this easy, I would have done it a long time ago!



Just keep Moving - Just keep Moving...


On an end note, I’d like to send a special shout-out to my Mummy! Mum has struggled with her weight for a long time, due to a lot of things. After spending time with her, she’s now on a mission to get her health back on track and has started walking on her treadmill and making the right food choices! I’m so proud of that! Together, we can support each other…although…I still do love your chicken schnitzel, rissoles and cauliflower cheese, Mum! Maybe next time, I’ll just have to have ‘smaller’ portions…not the whole container!!!!!   x


Mum - this is me giving you a high-five! Keep Going Keep Going!



I also forgot to mention that I tweeted to Mish when the kids were working out with me! I showed her the blog post and got this response:

Knowing Mish is on my side HELPS keep me moving!

week one – check



Hello! I’m here I’m here I swear!!  Week one is complete and I know I haven’t blogged a lot but I wasn’t sure how to put into words some of the things that have been going through my head this week.

I’m going to use a major cliche here and say that Week One of 12wbt has been a Roller Coaster of emotions!!!

Cue cheesy pic of a roller coaster to represent emotions...

I’ve been sticking to my guns and I’ve been doing the work. The food has been interesting and a big lesson in portion sizes!  In fact it was good to see that for our “treat meal” we stuck to healthy foods and couldn’t even finish our plates! One of the best things to come out of my challenge is that my husband is now on board 150% more than he was before and has become a ‘calorie counter’. I mean that in every sense of the word! Now, before he eats anything, he double checks what’s ‘in it’ and ‘how much’ and is it ‘worth it’ … I kinda love that about him!

I think also, one of my biggest hurdles to get over, is my impatience! I am extremely impatient and want things NOW!! I know that this is impossible and all good things will happen to those who work for it sooooo…..



I’m looking forward to Wednesday Weigh-In and will continue to work hard on my  and my 

after all, the valuable lesson to be learned and earned is we have to work hard to get what we want!!









Week One Kick Off

There were a lot of things that happened to me this week. Things that, in my ‘former’ life I would have turned to chocolate, chips, wine, soft drink….food in general, to comfort me. I won’t bore you with the details but just know…I was strong. I resisted temptation and I made the choice NOT to touch any of the things I would usually turn to.

12 week body transformation has officially kicked off into week one. Although I was making conscious decisions during pre-season, now we have a meal plan and a fitness plan to stick to. I find that I’m still struggling a little with ‘snacks’ to eat, but for the most part, it’s been a nice fit into our family. It’s surprising how delicious the food is, and how fun it is to shop for fresh food and bypass all those boxed ‘easy’ meals that are in fact, full of stuff the body doesn’t need.

While I was shopping I noticed there were a lot of ‘fresh herbs’ involved in the recipes. I’ve been stalling, procrastinating (something I do very often) in making a herb garden; never getting around to it. This was the perfect opportunity to finally do something about that, so as a family, we’ve made a herb garden! It will mean less waste for ‘store bought’ herbs and it means we’ll always have them on hand!

Our fun herb garden with some of the major herbs that are used in cooking (plus a chili plant for hubs, for good measure!)

Another thing I am truly grateful for, is that I have so many friends that are doing the 12WBT program OR, are trying to lose weight, eat healthy and exercise. I can’t even begin to describe how much this is keeping me uplifted and on track. I knew that keeping this blog would help me with accountability, but having other people asking and encouraging my progress means so much and does so many great things.

I did my fitness test yesterday. Phew…I can’t believe I managed to even make it 1 kilometer, let alone 1.5 that I achieved, without falling down dead! I have been put in the ‘beginner’ category, but in my opinion, I am the minus beginner class! It will be enjoyable to improve on these activities and see myself move up. I can’t believe that in my life, I have completed two 1/2 marathons. Yes, you read that right! I have actually completed two 1/2 marathons, while I was living in the US. They are some of my greatest personal achievements in my life; I only wish I still had the medals (which got lost in the move back to Australia) It’s what I’m aiming for in the future. The feeling of accomplishment is amazing, and whilst I have been running/exercising, I’m reminded that it’s not just a matter of getting out there and hitting the pavement. It takes time, determination and action.

Two of my greatest accomplishments in life……done many many many years ago (in a former life!!!)

So…now we get down to the big Wednesday Weigh In! We are half way through week one and I’ve already had a hurdle of going out to dinner with a friend. We went for Italian ..Mmmmm.. and although I looked and drooled at the menu and dreamed of creamy pasta I resisted! Instead, I enjoyed a light meal, enjoying the food and the company, without guilt was refreshing.

Soooo… *cue drumroll* … a loss is a loss is a loss right? Well, I was nervous! I knew that I had gone out last night and I was worried about what the scales would say… I was pleasantly surprised and have a spring in my step today, ready for more!

My current weight loss is:


I am pleased with that. I can’t wait to see that number move move move! I’m going to celebrate the small victories with a little happy dance

and remember:

Eradicate Excuses

I wrote this last night – It wouldn’t leave my head til it was down – I hope that it makes sense ..it does to me and that’s what matters..


How we make them
How we embrace them
Sheltered; comforted
But only in the moment
There is no time
No time to justify
No more excuses
The time to do it
Is now
Not, never
Not, later
Not, ever
Excuses do not live here
Freedom and empowerment have
Moved in; on
Pushing, striding
Gliding to Victory

I’m using this as motivation – I think it’s very appropriate




I couldn’t pass this one up either! A great reminder to keep going….

measurements and shredding it

Yesterday my husband and I sat down together and watched all the pre-season tasks for the upcoming 12 week challenge. It was very important for me to have him watch it with me, so that he can be in the same frame of mind as me, and he understands the program. He was very positive about everything and that made me excited!

We did the measurements as a part of the final pre-season task. *Sobs* Numbers never lie, as I’ve been discovering with the calorie counting. Having the numbers recorded is not only a bit daunting, but it is also giving me power to succeed; to see the numbers go down. As a part of the task we also took a “Before” pic. Of course it’s exciting to think that at the end of the 12 weeks I’ll be able to take another one and see photographic evidence. At the moment, it’s just a strong reminder that I am completely unhappy with where I am at the moment. It was horrible and I did not like looking at myself in underwear. (Thank goodness it’s not on national television!)

Today I was a lot more vigilant with my calories. Although I came under my allocation yesterday, it was only because I did some exercise! Today I was trying to figure out how I could ‘exercise’ with the kids about, and it being a rainy, cold, miserable day outside. I did a quick short workout by climbing our stairs! I thought to myself, people go to gyms to use stair masters and you have a full set in your house!! Why not use it!! I managed to record a small amount of calories but I wasn’t happy with that!!! I wanted to see more calories in the green, the more calories in the green, the more likely I am to succeed!

I ended up finding some workout DVDs and tonight, after dinner I put on the Level 1 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. It’s an intense, non-stop 27 minute cardio, strength training session.  It was very easy to do, but in easy I mean that it was easy to follow. It was by no means “easy” on the body!!! I was already aching today from my first walk/jog yesterday but knew I needed to keep moving my body so that I didn’t cease up! I am now deliciously achy!!!!!! I was sweating and burning and pushing myself.  Much to my delight, I was able to complete it and felt awesome doing the warm down! I do need a shower though!

They say that a Healthy Lifestyle change is a Family Affair. This started with my husband supporting me in every which way by watching the videos last night, and then this morning, posting on his Facebook status: very proud of his wife going on the Michelle Bridges health plan, GO TEAM GEN!  When I saw this status I was so happy, and so proud to have such a supportive husband! He’s even happy to eat the food as it certainly looks yummy! Having young children, you want to be able to make the right choices for them. I guess we’re doing something right, because tonight, when I was doing the “shred” video the kids decided to abandon Hi-5 and join in!!! I was using cans of food for my weights so Mr4 went to the pantry and supplied himself and Miss2 with baby food for their ‘weights’. They then came along and jumped around, punched and pushed! Mr4 exclaimed “Oh Mum, this is exercise” I said “It certainly is” and he said “Oh, we’re exercising, now we’ll have energy”  Aren’t children the best!! I smiled so much and kept pumping, pushing and shredding it!!!! Out of the mouths of babes is all the motivation I need!!!

A Family that exercises together - stays together

First workout

It’s been a week or so since my last post. I went away to the South Coast of NSW with the family and it was lovely. The weather was very kind to us this time and we were able to do many things as a family. Our first ‘real – successful’ holiday! We tried when Lil Miss (now 10.5months) was only 3 months and it was all sorts of fail!

The lovely South Coast of NSW

I haven’t done all my pre-season tasks yet as I was away and the internet reception was very sketchy, but I’m ready and raring to sit down and view them all and action them.I wanted to write this post now because I am feeling pumped. I downloaded MyFitnessPal for iPhone today, after hearing a lot about it. It’s fantastic! I’ve never been a numbers girl; anyone could tell you that, but this app is brilliant! I enter in my food/meals and hey presto…here’s how much you’ve eaten!I was shocked and amazed to see the numbers and it puts everything into perspective. This excites me!

Another big move today was that I moved!  I exercised for the first time in what I’m dubbing “I-can’t-remember”!!! I downloaded another app (have I told you that I have a love affair for my iPhone!?) that tracks you as you move. (BRILLIANT!) It was working out distance, pace, time and most importantly, calories burned. Every time I’d glance at it and see the calories moving higher I was pumped!!! It kept me moving!


Just to prove it, I’ve taken a pic of myself after!!  (Be warned – NOT glam at all!!!)

I've never been so excited to have a red, flushed face!

There’s still much to do but it’s a true flow on effect. Do one thing and the next will happen!

Thanks for all the messages of support I’ve received, I’m excited to know that I can share this with others. The support I’ve found for people who are involved in the 12WBT is amazing and motivating. Two things that will lead me on when times aren’t so easy!

MOODS: Excited – Happy – Exhausted (but a good exhausted!)


Pre-Season Jitters

This is going to be a rambling post that I have to get out..I have to put it down to pre-season jitters…..

Can you believe that we’re still in pre-season of this challenge and I’ve already been making small changes.  Stopping myself from eating useless snacks and empty calories has actually been really easy. I couldn’t believe how changing your mindset can be so simple.

This weeks pre-season task is a Kitchen Make-over and although I haven’t checked out the video yet I am a little scared and excited for it. Not sure how the family will take it, but kids do lead by example and my husband has already shown his full support.

I get the veggie box from Aussie Farmers Direct every two weeks and it’s exciting to see what new vegetables are in it. This week we got asparagus. Who doesn’t look at asparagus and usually think..yuk *hands up* …with the power of Google I found a delicious roasted asparagus recipe with garlic and some pepper and light rock salt. I couldn’t believe how wonderful it turned out! I don’t think I would have opened my mind to that if I hadn’t been apart of this challenge.

I’m going away for a holiday with the family this week and I look forward to having a few ‘treats’ but I also find on holidays there’s a lot more activeness which counteracts things, although I have to say, I don’t even ‘feel’ like the things I used to, chips, chocolate, biscuits….

I’m looking to join a gym too, but finances are an issue….and also the 3 kids under 4!!! I don’t want to use these as an excuse and I know I can exercise at home, but I want to have that ‘alone’ time as well, the feeling of getting out of the house on my own and doing something for myself…I’ll have to ‘find’ the money! Money tree, oh money tree where are you?!?!

I think this is enough rambling for tonight! I don’t even know if it makes sense! It’s the nervous jitters!!!

Thanks for reading and supporting me!

MOOD: Nervous, Excited, Happy



I was listening to the next pre-season tasks in the 12WBT and I was really inspired by how things are done. I have a big goal, of course I do. I want to lose a lot of weight. I think in the past I haven’t been able to achieve this because it seems like such a huge goal. In fact, it’s not. By breaking it down and working towards it, it’s more than achievable. I can and will do this.

Since sign-up a couple of weeks ago I have been consciously aware of what I’m eating and when I’m eating. We haven’t officially started yet and I’m excited. I’ve already seen the scales move down by at least 2kgs, this number fluctuates, but it’s still not the ‘beginning’ weight it was a few weeks ago.

Hope. The meaning of Hope on Dictionary.com is –

The feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best:

A person or thing in which expectations are centered: 

I have so much hope when it comes to this challenge. So many hopes and dreams that I am in control of.

The question was asked, last night: What have you just eaten? It was 8.30pm. I could report back that I had just made myself a decaf coffee, however I did not enjoy it at all. Luckily, this wasn’t the worst of answers. There was McDonalds, Doritos…all sorts of junk food. I would normally have been one of those people that puts their hand up and said I’d had a hot milo with chocolate biscuits. I think the comfort of having that late at night is something that is hard to break. Instead, I’m reaching for a Peppermint tea or a Sleepy Time tonic.

I’ve cut back but not cut out. That is, until the program gets well under way and I’m getting my arse kicked!! At lunch on Sunday we had Chicken and Salad and there was a huge tray of hot chips sitting in front of me. If I had not eaten any I think I would have felt entirely deprived. If I’d eaten a handful I would have felt sick afterwards. Instead, I counted out 5 small chips, put them on my plate and savoured them.  I know that in the future, if I am to do this, it means I will have to work extra hard to get them off.

I’m ready for the challenge. I’m hopeful. Every morning I wake up and think that my mindset is already changing for the better. I’m finding myself to be a brighter person and I put it down to hope.

I can’t wait….


Unconscious moments

Last night I came to a profound realization. How many times have you eaten something without thinking about it? I couldn’t even tell you. I didn’t even know I was doing it until I had eaten the last bite of chocolate! I was on the couch watching the news and my husband handed me some chocolate. I accepted and started eating it. As I was chewing the last bite, and enjoying it, I realized…I was eating chocolate!! I was immediately upset with myself! It was nice, but I didn’t need it! From that moment on my brain has switched on and I’m now consciously thinking before eating.
I haven’t even gotten into the guts of this program yet but am really pleased with the way it’s heading….
Emotions: Determined

Jumping the small hurdles

Today I felt good about a choice I made. Friday is our swimming lesson day for the 2 older kids. A usually hectic morning that then sees up hopping over to McDonalds for a bite to eat. It doesn’t help that the McDonalds is right next to the swim school and they have a massive playground that the kids beg to go and play on.

I usually grab myself a ‘meal deal’ and eat it with regret, because really…it does NOT taste great to me, it’s …easy.

Today I compromised. I let the kids go over and play and have fun, but instead of ordering an easy, wasted calorie meal, I just went with a skim coffee. I didn’t miss the food and the only thing I longed for was the delicious looking new McFlurrys they’ve started selling. Way to challenge my resistance Maccas!

It made me feel good that I was strong enough to bypass the voices and make a decision not to eat the food.

I like coffee. I enjoy coffee. I hope they don’t tell me I can’t have any coffee. I’m happy to drink in moderation, but won’t ever be able to eliminate it. Here’s my yummy coffee of the day:

Emotions: Content, Happy

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No More Excuses

Wasting time, wasting money and not taking responsibility. These are the things that I am going to ensure that I don’t do. I have such a history of starting things, but I don’t finish them. That’s something that is going to be a big hurdle to get over.

No one else CAN do this but me, I am the only person who can do this. I am lucky to have a supportive husband who has said that if it’s going to make me happy then go for it.

I have been road-blocking myself for a very long time.

I’m not motivated enough (Internal excuse)

I’m too busy (External excuses within my control) – on second thought, once breaking these excuses down – I’m not ‘that’ busy!  If I start going to bed early I can get up early, before the kids wake and do what needs to be done. I can start the day in a positive way, instead of being lethargic and wanting to sleep.

…Let go of all the excuses. They are holding me back and I have been using them for so long that I believe that I can get away with them. It’s ridiculous and something that is not a part of my ‘optimistic’ personality that I used to have.

I’m going to stop over thinking my decision ‘not’ to exercise and make sure I move, I do something, starting now. I’m going to kick start my brain into being motivated, no matter what. Let it begin to be a part of my day as a part of every day routine.

Emotions: Motivated

We’ve Only Just Begun…

Hi There! If you’re reading this – then welcome to my blog! If you’re not – then, never mind!

I’m starting this blog to keep myself on track and accountable. I’m about to make a big step and commit to something. I’ve never been great at follow through. I tend to go into things head first and be very enthusiastic and then it dies away and I end up leaving a trail of many half-open projects and endeavours. This is something I won’t be able to do that with. This involves me, being the best I can be and doing the best I can do. This is for me and for nobody else. I’ve decided to start the Michelle Bridges 12 week body transformation, or as people in the know call it 12WBT.

I have tried everything and anything under the sun, as you can imagine. The most weight I’ve ever lost was 5kgs on Lite N Easy and also having some guidance from my sister, who is involved in the world of active lifestyle, and has competed in Body Shaping competitions.  But now, I want to lose a minimum of 10kgs. At least! I want to lose the hips, the bum, thighs, all of it! I want it smaller. In fact, I think it’s a great day to start because when I went to put my only pair of jeans that I own on today, they started to rip! I refuse to go and buy another pair, until I can buy a smaller size!

Maybe I should start with a little about me and why I want to do this?

I’m 32 and a married mum to 3 children under 4. I am currently a stay at home mum but have recently applied for full-time work. As a mum to young children I always feel like I’m on the go and ‘busy’; at the same time I feel like I get nothing achieved! It’s a tough battle of balance and I definitely haven’t mastered it, not sure if I ever will! I can’t join a gym, because the packing all the kids up and trekking off to a gym seems like too much hassle. I also have a husband who does a lot of overnight or lengthy travel. That means I join a gym, I pay the money and then I can’t go. I could walk around my lovely neighbourhood, however when you take 3 kids for a walk, it’s more of a leisurely stroll, not a power walk. I also have the issues of the travelling husband.

These all sound like excuses and I believe they might possibly be. In fact, these excuses are no longer valid. As of today I am putting a stop to all excuses and I’m making myself ‘do’. I can do this, I can achieve this, and I can see this through. I want to make myself a better person and I hope through this challenge I can.  I want to be more self-confident. I want to be happy with myself. I want to look in the mirror and not absolutely hate what I see. I want to buy clothes that look good on me. I don’t want to be frumpy anymore.

I have been watching a lot of the videos and reading the success stories from people who have already completed or are currently completing this challenge. They are inspiring and amazing and I aspire to be one of those stories that people can look back on and say “Wow, if she did it, I can do it.”

If you’re reading this, I need your help in a little way! I need you to hold me accountable! I find that if I am accountable to myself first, and then have others for support and back up I can achieve this. Together, we can help discover myself one gram loss at a time!

I’m just about to go and sign up and pay the money! Look out for updates soon as I start on this journey, join me in the ups and downs. I can’t wait to hear your stories too!

Emotions: Excited, Nervous, A little Scared, Determined.