Self-sabotage and becoming a clean eating nut!!!

I haven’t blogged much besides the weigh-in days because I have been in a zone for my end goal and that requires me spending a lot more time away from my computer! Absolutely usually unheard of from me, but there’s no burning calories sitting on the couch, tapping fingers!

A lot of the lessons I’m learning in these 12 weeks is all about self- sabotage. The fact that you know something isn’t good for you or right for you, but you do it anyway. You know the one: that Freddo frog, that piece of cake or that glass of wine. It’s not of any value to you physically, only emotionally. For those who know me, my husband works in the Wine Industry. Of course, for the longest time this has worked favourably for us, wine in the fridge all the time, and endless supply of deliciousness at my fingertips. It would be nothing for me to have a glass or two a night, or indulge in a bottle (or two) on a Friday/Saturday night. Who knew how much it was hindering my efforts!?! Did you know there are over 100 calories in a glass of wine *gulp*!!!

This past weekend I attended a formal function with my husband. These events aren’t always the ‘most exciting,’ but it’s a lovely night out, we get dressed up, have good food and get away from the kids for a few hours! This past one I decided I was sick of the rotation of dresses I always wear so I asked my friends if they had anything I could borrow. In the past, I haven’t been anywhere near a ‘size’ I think would work for borrowing clothes, but I was feeling good and confident and also hopeful that the kilos I’ve dropped already would make a difference.

I ended up with over 8 dress selections!! Some of them didn’t fit—I still have a few kilos to go for them, but never fear they’re on my radar for future events! The one I chose was perfect. It was comfortable, I felt good in it and it fit (all incredibly important pre-requisites to fill!) My friend also let me borrow some awesome heels. I’m only 5’2” so not on the tall side! I must admit, I usually go to these events and feel a little short and frumpy. I can proudly say, for once, I didn’t feel ‘frumpy’. I know I still have a long long way to go, but I actually felt confident. I held myself tall (with a lot of help from the heels!) and I had my shoulders back. I also wore a size I’ve NEVER worn, or at least I can’t remember ever wearing! While my clothes are nowhere near the size I wore, the dress was a very generous wrap dress that I’ll savour as my first size 12. That’s my ideal clothes weight and it’s helping to keep my goal in check and my path in focus.

Me teetering on very high heels!

Killer SPARKLY heels I got to wear!

Like I said earlier, I would usually booze up at these events, for entertainment purposes (!) but with all my goals steadily being achieved lately, I went into a focus zone and knew I had to be strong. I could not self-sabotage all the hard work I’d done up to this point. It wouldn’t take much at all to undo the hard work, as crazy as that sounds, a bottle of wine would have destroyed me. I gladly accepted water on the night and the food was tailored perfectly (those events usually are, thankfully!) I confess, I did indulge in 2 ½ glasses of sparkling wine (but that was after I checked how many calories I’d consumed that day!!!) I didn’t regret it at all and I savoured them.

The night was good and we both left with a clear head (and I could walk in the heels!!) When I got up yesterday I was a little regretful for having the sparkling so I jumped on the scales and was very happy to see they hadn’t moved in an up direction. *phew* Self-sabotaging is something that takes effort to acknowledge and to stop. The temptation is put in front of us on a daily basis, including marketing via tele, magazines and online. Instead of indulging in the chocolate anymore I stop and ask myself; does my body need this to work? What benefit does my body get from this? Will I be making myself go back 3 steps by having a temporary fix? I don’t think so. I’m not saying that I’ll deny myself for the rest of my life and that I’ll never indulge in a bottle of wine, or a piece of chocolate, but I am saying that I will withhold from that for a little while. Until I get to my goal!

Hubby and I all set to go - Hubs has lost 10kg in 5 weeks!!

I also have a little mantra that I constantly repeat to myself: Do not eat unconsciously. Think about what I’m putting in my mouth and remember if it’s not natural and ‘clean’, it’s likely not good for me.

This moves me onto my next topic! Clean eating… Who knew?!?! I have become a little obsessed with what can only be described as “DUH, why wouldn’t you?” type of food. Clean eating is all about non-processed, natural food. I’m proud to say we’re doing a great job at not eating anything from a ‘box’ or with ‘extra ingredients’. The food on the program IS delicious and healthy and tasty and good for you. Guilt-free eating is the best! I’ve discovered The Gracious Pantry and she is amazing. She has all these recipes listed that are ‘clean’ ingredients, some of them are amazing (including the desserts!) Take a look at her blog and tell me that taking a little extra effort doesn’t look worth it!! I’m excited to have so many options to cook great food, once our program for this round is complete. I also want to add that since being on the 12 week body transformation, we’ve not spend AS MUCH on food!!!! We have a menu given to us and we’ve found that most of the shopping is done in the fruit and vegetable section! It makes so much sense!!! I can’t stop talking about clean eating to EVERYONE I see (I apologise to my friends for the bombardment of my nutty ways!) and I also apologise to the strangers who I talk to as well!! Okay, let me be honest…..I’m not sorry, I’m excited!!!!!! Come to the Other Side my friend! Let the Force guide you!!

Anyway, I’ve rambled enough for now and really need to get moving and take the kids for a walk. I’ll leave you with a few pics of the past week. I love the pics of my kids doing “crunches and lunges”. They are constantly asking when we’re going to exercise?!! The only thing I have to watch is Mr4 who is very interested in the ‘boxing’ part of my workout!  I have a long way to go, and I will make it, I know I will. It’s not easy, it takes focus and it takes determination to want it! I want it!



Thanks for reading! I love to hear your feedback!! I’ll catch you all on Wednesday with some good news .. *positive thinking*


2 thoughts on “Self-sabotage and becoming a clean eating nut!!!

  1. You look amazing!!! The dress is gorgeous but the prettiest thing there is your proud smile – keep it up!

    I have a little mantra that I heard and has stuck in my head and helped banish the binge eating…

    “Do not reward yourself with food. You are not a dog.”

    I’ve stuck it on the pantry door for when the late night TV has me wandering in to the kitchen. =D

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